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COLLECTION 1 |
Often
I reached out
Often
I came close
Often
I pulled back
if
there was a way to change
wave
a magic wand
command
a jeanie
roll
a lucky dice
Take
me deep
Swallow
my pride
Tie
me down
Chain
me up
Let
bleed desire's fire
on
freedom's alter
before
sacred oaths
dissolve
saturn's grip that strangles silken whispers
before
YES is breathed
and
dies without belief
Like
I do
each
time I reach out
then
pull back
12-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1151)
While
reviewing the past
the
way it was
how
we were
such
easy thoughts
nothing
ever to worry
I
realized
I
saw
I
knew
now
was just a cartoon
of
what would have been
if
we could have
been
now
then
12-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1990)
Broke
the mode
of
who I was
now
you see
the
source of my shadow
the
end of my projection
the
face behind every mask.
Just
before
I
began a new day
another
era
a
beautiful me
alone
in flight
over
my broken mode.
So
the who you see
who
looks like me
but
acts so free
is
but master of ceremony
grand
performance
finally
on stage
with
little left to offer
but
the
way I am
again
today
in
broken mode
once
again I am.
12-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99D)
So
sure
that
this was the right direction
everything
always
had
led to this spot
until
we discovered
that
we weren't here
and
neither was the spot
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1342 B)
We
drew a line
in
the sand
but
the tides
washed
us away
leaving
the line
that
we drew
dividing
us
from
being one
to
fight the tides
that
came
and
took us
away
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1745 B)
Buried
treasures
like
hidden talents
leaves
us poor
and
all alone
with
no one
sharing
what
we'd have
if
hidden treasures
and
buried talents
weren't.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99 D)
Shattered
illusions
Scattered
conclusions
Battered
delusions
dissolved
by the dawn of reason
Now
nothing is left
but
created reality
so
clear
I
can see forever
Hello
New Morning
Good
Bye every night
12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1256)
At
a final frontier
we
conquered fear
to
devour
each
other
like
any
cannibal
of love
would
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(62 D)
The
day after
The
night before
left
me
wanting
to wake with you
once
again
in
the day after
the
night before
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1405)
This
year so quickly went
I
went back
to
do it once again
just
to know
it
really had happened.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1565)
I
looked in the dictionary
to
find meaning
but
no explanation
cleared
up
my
wonderment
of
what
this
means
You
and I
three
words in the dictionary
one
in my mind.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(512)
I
always thought
one
more would be enough
and
when it is
it
will be
But
for now
here
I am
only
one more
from
being enough.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(288)
I
was wondering
what
will be the last word said
the
final line written
the
last caress
the
final bite
before
I die
then
I realized
I
wouldn't remember anyway
so
on I ramble
write
touch
and
eat
like
any eternal consumer
would
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(842)
If
each thing done
we
do as
that
to be our masterpiece
then
our life
that
will be
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(349 A)
Again
my
friend
the
end
does
send
this
trend
again
ABOUT
FACE
CHANGE
DIRECTION
whisper
loudly
the
blind feel what we don't see
the
deaf see what we don't hear
the
lonely know every face in the crowd
but
at the end
I'll
still be your friend
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(6 B)
'Lucky
me'
said
the tree
'I
will never be
lost
on a freeway
short
on what to say
found
shopping
seen
hopping
lucky
me
lucky
me
said
the tree
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(956 D)
All
the advice ever asked
never
led anyone to the stars
all
the questions pursued
never
changed the unexpected
all
the theories so explained
never
ever
and
it will still all be
the
same
again
tomorrow
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(12)
'Oh
No! Oh No!'
said
the tree
and
all the people stopped
to
question a tree
that
would talk
but
never more
did
that tree say
And
that is how
the
religion of the tree began
and
why everyone
chants
'Oh
No! Oh No!'
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1155 B)
All
our possessions
are
but props
to
insulate our space
before
we became to know
that
we never
needed
them anyway.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(12 B)
Cold!
Only
the physical body knows
take
away the cold
I'm
still here
take
away my body
the
cold remains
if
I could
I
would be
a
naked thought sitting on an arctic flow
and
diving into frozen illusion tundra
I'd
swim in the cold
and
pretend my body was with me
like
I do now
in
this cold world
I've
been given to wander.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(120)
As
fragile as each new moment is
the
strength to proceed into in
is
but BELIEF
given
wings
to
give flight
when
needed to be.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 D a)
Nature
brought forth humans
because
dinosaurs
couldn't paint
amoebas
wouldn't carry a tune
apes
refused to write poetry
and
there was no one to understand this.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1002 B)
The
reason we do everything
done
we
did
is
to look at it at the end
to
see if
we
did
it
correctly
since
the beginning.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1467 A)
Like
a poem
going
no where
a
song
without
a tune
seeds
planted in the desert
and
love with no dawn
life
is
without
direction.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(908 B)
We
had so many backup plans
that
we crashed
backing
up
never
seeing
where
we were going.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1769)
While
looking for the perfect gift
silence
screamed at me
'GIVE
NOTHING
BECAUSE
THAT IS ALL
WE
SHALL HAVE AT THE END'
and
now
we
could get use to
getting
it early.
12-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1983)
I
never wanted to be
anything
more
than
everything
that
you are
I
never wanted to be white
or
so poor
so
unknown
I'm
not even a part of history's pathways
but
if there weren't shadows like me
there
would never be
stars
like you.
12-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell NeuageSA (571 B)
The
last verse
was
in your purse
all
you had to do
was
open and see
but
you shot through
and
left me free
Yet
always the waves
reach
the horizon
poems
seldom rhyme
nature
does not understand humans
and
the last verse
was
in your purse
lost
with my heart
amongst
all the things
you
carry
wherever
you fly.
12-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1427)
If
I said good night
would
that change the orbit of the sun
make
the collide with Mars
or
a garden snail learn to run
probably
not probably not
because
within preconceived ideas
giraffes
don't become butterflies
love
never dies
and
I don't hear you
saying
good night to me.
12-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(380)
We
don't live in troubled times
troubled
times live in us
swallow
butterflies
eat
rainbows
drink
stars
DIGESTED
CHANGE
takes
away
troubled
times.
12-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1743)
I
keep thinking it's a different day
another
life
who
opened the windows
and
let in
these
times
this
place
that
reflection
which
could never be
anything
more
than
a different day
another
life.
Often
I reached out
Often
I came close
Often
I pulled back
if
there was a way to change
wave
a magic wand
command
a jeanie
roll
a lucky dice
Take
me deep
Swallow
my pride
Tie
me down
Chain
me up
Let
bleed desire's fire
on
freedom's alter
before
sacred oaths
dissolve
saturn's grip that strangles silken whispers
before
YES is breathed
and
dies without belief
Like
I do
each
time I reach out
then
pull back
12-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1151)
While
reviewing the past
the
way it was
how
we were
such
easy thoughts
nothing
ever to worry
I
realized
I
saw
I
knew
now
was just a cartoon
of
what would have been
if
we could have
been
now
then
12-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1990)
Broke
the mode
of
who I was
now
you see
the
source of my shadow
the
end of my projection
the
face behind every mask.
Just
before midnight
I
began a new day
another
era
a
beautiful me
alone
in flight
over
my broken mode.
So
the who you see
who
looks like me
but
acts so free
is
but master of ceremony
grand
performance
finally
on stage
with
little left to offer
but
the
way I am
again
today
in
broken mode
once
again I am.
12-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99D)
So
sure
that
this was the right direction
everything
always
had
led to this spot
until
we discovered
that
we weren't here
and
neither was the spot
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1342 B)
We
drew a line
in
the sand
but
the tides
washed
us away
leaving
the line
that
we drew
dividing
us
from
being one
to
fight the tides
that
came
and
took us
away
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1745 B)
Buried
treasures
like
hidden talents
leaves
us poor
and
all alone
with
no one
sharing
what
we'd have
if
hidden treasures
and
buried talents
weren't.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99 D)
Shattered
illusions
Scattered
conclusions
Battered
delusions
dissolved
by the dawn of reason
Now
nothing is left
but
created reality
so
clear
I
can see forever
Hello
New Morning
Good
Bye every night
12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1256)
At
a final frontier
we
conquered fear
to
devour
each
other
like
any
cannibal
of love
would
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(62 D)
The
day after
The
night before
left
me
wanting
to wake with you
once
again
in
the day after
the
night before
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1405)
This
year so quickly went
I
went back
to
do it once again
just
to know
it
really had happened.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1565)
I
looked in the dictionary
to
find meaning
but
no explanation
cleared
up
my
wonderment
of
what
this
means
You
and I
three
words in the dictionary
one
in my mind.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(512)
I
always thought
one
more would be enough
and
when it is
it
will be
But
for now
here
I am
only
one more
from
being enough.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(288)
I
was wondering
what
will be the last word said
the
final line written
the
last caress
the
final bite
before
I die
then
I realized
I
wouldn't remember anyway
so
on I ramble
write
touch
and
eat
like
any eternal consumer
would
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(842)
If
each thing done
we
do as
that
to be our masterpiece
then
our life
that
will be
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(349 A)
Again
my
friend
the
end
does
send
this
trend
again
ABOUT
FACE
CHANGE
DIRECTION
whisper
loudly
the
blind feel what we don't see
the
deaf see what we don't hear
the
lonely know every face in the crowd
but
at the end
I'll
still be your friend
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(6 B)
'Lucky
me'
said
the tree
'I
will never be
lost
on a freeway
short
on what to say
found
shopping
seen
hopping
lucky
me
lucky
me
said
the tree
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(956 D)
All
the advice ever asked
never
led anyone to the stars
all
the questions pursued
never
changed the unexpected
all
the theories so explained
never
ever
and
it will still all be
the
same
again
tomorrow
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(12)
'Oh
No! Oh No!'
said
the tree
and
all the people stopped
to
question a tree
that
would talk
but
never more
did
that tree say
And
that is how
the
religion of the tree began
and
why everyone
chants
'Oh
No! Oh No!'
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1155 B)
All
our possessions
are
but props
to
insulate our space
before
we became to know
that
we never
needed
them anyway.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(12 B)
Cold!
Only
the physical body knows
take
away the cold
I'm
still here
take
away my body
the
cold remains
if
I could
I
would be
a
naked thought sitting on an arctic flow
and
diving into frozen illusion tundra
I'd
swim in the cold
and
pretend my body was with me
like
I do now
in
this cold world
I've
been given to wander.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(120)
As
fragile as each new moment is
the
strength to proceed into in
is
but BELIEF
given
wings
to
give flight
when
needed to be.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 D a)
Nature
brought forth humans
because
dinosaurs
couldn't paint
amoebas
wouldn't carry a tune
apes
refused to write poetry
and
there was no one to understand this.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1002 B)
The
reason we do everything
done
we
did
is
to look at it at the end
to
see if
we
did
it
correctly
since
the beginning.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1467 A)
Like
a poem
going
no where
a
song
without
a tune
seeds
planted in the desert
and
love with no dawn
life
is
without
direction.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(908 B)
We
had so many backup plans
that
we crashed
backing
up
never
seeing
where
we were going.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1769)
While
looking for the perfect gift
silence
screamed at me
'GIVE
NOTHING
BECAUSE
THAT IS ALL
WE
SHALL HAVE AT THE END'
and
now
we
could get use to
getting
it early.
12-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1983)
I
never wanted to be
anything
more
than
everything
that
you are
I
never wanted to be white
or
so poor
so
unknown
I'm
not even a part of history's pathways
but
if there weren't shadows like me
there
would never be
stars
like you.
12-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell NeuageSA (571 B)
The
last verse
was
in your purse
all
you had to do
was
open and see
but
you shot through
and
left me free
Yet
always the waves
reach
the horizon
poems
seldom rhyme
nature
does not understand humans
and
the last verse
was
in your purse
lost
with my heart
amongst
all the things
you
carry
wherever
you fly.
12-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1427)
If
I said good night
would
that change the orbit of the sun
make
the collide with Mars
or
a garden snail learn to run
probably
not probably not
because
within preconceived ideas
giraffes
don't become butterflies
love
never dies
and
I don't hear you
saying
good night to me.
12-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(380)
We
don't live in troubled times
troubled
times live in us
swallow
butterflies
eat
rainbows
drink
stars
DIGESTED
CHANGE
takes
away
troubled
times.
12-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1743)
I
keep thinking it's a different day
another
life
who
opened the windows
and
let in
these
times
this
place
that
reflection
which
could never be
anything
more
than
a different day
another
life.
12-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(485 B)
Woken
highway
reached
out
I
held on
through
the deserts
ofpver
rivers
into
mountains
This
highway
would
not listen to my pleas to stop
This
highway
had
heard desperate hooves
as
horses escaped in the 1800s
had
see Porches and Harleys
had
felt pain
joy
but
never aloneness
like
I so often have
This
highway
took
me to this realm
I
can not escape
my
family calls it madness
my
doctor - a genetic flaw
my
psychic said I was born to the highway
I
its slave
and
it will be this highway
at
the end of the tunnel
where
beings of light
will
throw me back
and
tell me to follow the highway
until
I know where it's headed
(like
if I would anyway - ever)
Now
I'm quite use to this highway which keeps going
into
other dimensions
like
I do
each
time I think of the road once traveled
the
road futures will travel
This
highway never ending.
12-31-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell NeuageSA. (2055)
Morning
swallowed
my
dreams
made
me hungry
to
see if
they'd
come true
like
everything else
I
believe in
does
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(978)
At
the beginning
when
all there was
was
already there
waiting
to be put together
like
you and me
and
the galaxies
too
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(64)
I
was so sleepy
I
slept standing up
while
the world
lay
on its side
watching
5-1-93
(838)
the
reason
we
are here
is
because dawn
doesn't
want to
come
alone
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1430)
like
steps through history
or
a wander through dreams
today's
beliefs,efs
grew
out of yesterday's crumbled ideologies
for
tomorrow's
individual
freedom
finally
won
to
take wings
never
to land again
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(916)
I
learned shorthand
speed
reading
computerization
experienced
Paris in a day
read
'Readers Digest'
condensed
pasteurized homogenized great novels
and
watched history of civilization
but
time stood still
when
your touch
became
so
involved
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(492)
I
concentrated so hard
on
this moment
that
yesterday and tomorrow disappeared
now
like
neapolitan ice cream
melted
contains
the former and the latter
in
a future past tense
that
has no ease
of
explanation
in
this moment
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(316 C)
There
is little difference
between
you and me
except
that I am conscious
of
the little difference
(even
calling them my own)
and
you see them
being
but variations
of
your greater self
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1430 D)
This
life goes so fast
that
when I die
I
will need
a
thousand years
to
review all that happened
in
this life
5-1-93
(1508)
The
continuous pouring out
of
creativity
fueled
forever's freedom's
perceptual
persuasion's performance
reflected
perfectly
for
me
to
know
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1394)
I
wouldn't want to live on Venus
because
there are no trees
nor
on Mars with its lack of flowers
and
there is no chocolate on Jupiter
or
ice cream on Mercury
while
on earth
everything
I want
is
between the sea
the
trees
and
the shopping mall.
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(858)
If
I knew how to write
a
poem
I
would
if
I knew how to sing
I
would
If
I could dance, take photos
paint
or tell your future
I
would
But
all I can do
is
build you a castle
in
the sand
and
offer it to you
before
the sea
take
it from me
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(376)
the
reason
we
don't have wings
is
because we don't have to fly north
for
the winter
But
can stay all winter-warm
wrapped
in each other's
warmth
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(946)
The
reason
we
keep coming to earth
is
to learn to stop dying
but
we keep
getting
into the Plato trap
of
this is it
why
keep going
5-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(946 C)
Not
every time
is
everything
going
to be
the
way it is
at
other times
But
instead
like
any spinning top everything gets a chance\
to
be close at hand
again
if
we see
5-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1130 C)
We
rush through life
like
we're in a hurry
to
get to the end
not
knowing what it is
except
that
it
will be different
than
the rush through
this
life is
5-593
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1768)
I
write
for
the same reasons
a
bird flies
far
from an oil slick
a
whale stays away
from
a stream
and
buffaloes avoid mountains
I
write only
to
find these answers
that
everyone else
already
knows
5-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(858)
As
if this moment could be preserved:
placed
in a safe-deposit box, frozen in space, cloned, kept intact
maybe
even used again
reincarnated,
transmigrated, resuscitated,
recycled
moments
in
another reality
a
paralleling toyed universe
where
earth-used moments
are
packaged and sold in day-fill programmes
Drive-thru-take-away-moment-services
'Yes
I will take three moments to go
two
yesterdays and one tomorrow'
And
I reach out to take a hold of a yesterday
the
moment we said good bye
in
hopes of renaming it and bringing it back to life
only
to discover the moment I wanted returned
had
been used by a patriot in an alternative drifting energy force
and
was no longer mine
to
have again
but
only to observe
in
mutational memory cells
reflecting
changing interpretation of
the
way it once was
11-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 C)
Before:
After was known
When
storms were calm
Emotions
describable
And
colour bland
Answers
were easy
But
meaning wasn't.
11-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(76)
Inside
wholeness
separation
is unknown
like
the splitting of an atom
is
unknown
inside
wholeness
But
the results
are
the same
11-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(576)
Curtains
drawn
over
windows of time
left
imagination
without
a view
like
an unlit night
shows
what can not be seen
when
all that is revealed
is
nothing at all
11-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(136 B)
In
the morning
I
looked forward to
meeting
the new me
that
I heard about
in
a dream
But
the new me
stayed
in the dream
while
mirror showed
the
same snapshot
it
had shown
every
other morning
fuzzy
wakefulness
far
from any dream thought possible
11-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(582)
While
sharing one another
with
each other
We
traded lives
and
worked on correcting
all
the faults we had
perceived
in each other
before
we had traded lives
then
we traded back
only
to die laughing
at
what we had created
Perhaps
next time
we'll
just accept and not modify
live
and not die
and
share
and not trade
11-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1993)
While
making way
for
new experiences
the
past was stored away
in
the attic
where
a spider
web-woven
devoured
the past
and
the present
ran
naked
knowing
such a fate
could
be escaped
if
experiences
no
longer were stored
away
11-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1985)
Without
risk
a
billion galaxies
would
have not begun to dance
with
questions
a
billion suns
in
our galaxy
would
have not take a first deep breath
without
nature
chaos
would have no joy
without
you
a
billion cells in my life
will
lose their spark.
21-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(2051)
Close
to where I want to be
But
never there
like
a future
reachable
not
holdable
hoped
for
not
known
seeable
But
only in a mist
before
form
covers
now
in
the never to be
so
in today once again
as
always
all
is within reach
and
parts even attainable
but
never all
never
all
never
all
12-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(118 B)
The
release
freed
me:
What
I once wanted
no
longer needed
flew
forth
like
love does
once
it has wings
12-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1479)
Fresh
start
reinvented
me
today
is the reincarnation of yesterday
But
I'm not
Reinvented
me
is
all I can see.
12-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(231 B)
yy
Without
sounding
too
philosophical
spiritual
down-to-earth
metaphysical
or
psychological
I
need you
like
any farmer
the
rain
would
12-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(2051 B)
I
thought nature
was
blushing
from
listening to me
speak
about you
But
it was dawn
that
was making nature come
with
such colour
not
my description of you
12-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(674)
sky
cleared
darkened
thoughts
blocking
dawn
so
morning could see
my
wish had come true
you
and I free of
darkened
thoughts
12-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1290)
Just
when I understood
how
the final piece fitted
when
nature cheered
exploration
showed meaning
changes
laughed in reason
I
awoke
to
see clouds disperse
love
leap forward
success
call my name
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(873 B)
I
use to think
I
was the luckiest person
on
earth
to
be with you
now
I realize
you're
the lucky one
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(742)
I
didn't notice
a
difference between
day
and night
until
you pointed out
that
is how
we
are
shooting
stars
gone
too far
passing
passing
we'll
know soon
which
we're like
which
we're not
but
sameness
is
left out doors
somewhere
between
day
and night
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(321 B)
I
just thought we could stop
along
the coast of our first touch
atop
the mountain of desire first conquered
past
our first laugh over a whispering horizon
But
I just got a message from the dawn
saying
memory is better than promise
promise
is better than forever
forever
is better than forever
and
in circles
the
merry-go-round never strays
like
my feelings for you
always
changing
never
ceasing
always
finding
never
seeking
always
one
you're
never close
because
I'm always there
just
around a corner
in
the back of your memory
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(480)
I
wanted to be a legend
a
whisper amongst time's shadows
spoken
about in parliament
dreamt
of in alleys
cried
over
in
Delphi often
number
one on MTV
a
source of multiple orgasm\inner space colonization\political revolution
the
dawn at road's end
And
I was
somewhere
in time
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(778)
I
wanted to be safe
so
I gave you a single rose
instead
of promising the world
a
smile
rather
than tomorrow too
a
light touch
that
could never the place
of
all I wanted to give
beyond
a single rose
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(782 D)
I
wanted too much
such
a short time
to
try it all
have
a taste
devour
more than before
to
go every direction at once
But
I did
so
excuse the way I am
because
I wanted too much
and
it all I did
too
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(791 A)
I
tried to shake away
shadow's
memories
fallen
beliefs
and
dusty mirages
of
when you were
an
oasis to me
but
trials of now
lost
in forests of good byes
took
me to this corner
this
crossroad
this
space
where
I remember everything
no
matter how much
I try
to strike away
memory
will cast me forever
in
the starring role
I
had
once
with you
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(720 D)
The
cross of reason
tossed
experience into now
dreams
so real now weren't
feelings
once felt dissipated
wishes
just another book read
(the
seven seas just another pool swam)
The
cross of reason
forever
there
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1402 B)
The
only reason
nature
has let us
get
this far
is
because it needs
someone
to water the flowers
when
the rain
doesn't
flow
like
we do
when
together
the
dawn we touch
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1445)
I
sang the same line
over
so many times
to
make it rhyme
You
were following a star
I
followed morning
crossed
visions left me alone
if
only I knew the tone
take
me
the
sea
I
will sail forever
fallen
forgotten endeavour
leave
me this moment free
for
all I can see
is
the remainder of me
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(614 B)
While
fading into you
I
grabbed on to
a
final portion of me
like
forever
takes
a final glimpse of
the
moment
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1975)
As
difficult as the moment appears
it
is nothing
compared
with
a
tree from a seed
a
president from a collision of sperm and egg
millions
of dollars from six numbers in the lottery
another
moment with you
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 C)
why
this is this way
mist
rises
rain
falls
winter
froze
you
touch
I
melt
this
way it is
tomorrow
too
it
will be
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(2033)
Time
came
when
window
showed
little more
than
thought cleared sky
echoes
whispered
shades
of colours
If
I knew the way
would
have smelt like
a
spring morning
when
we believed
winter
would never return
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1567)
"HOLD
THE MEMORY!"
I
yelled
this
isn't all
that
can be done
before
next moment new packages now into
'remember
when?'
and
pouring forth
more
than
better
than
I
watch the moment explode
shooting
forth
galactic
droplets
of
new moments
each
carrying
more
than
better
than
within
its form
12-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(282)
Focusing
on you
blurred
the surroundings
Your
life
nature's
victory
Your
senses
future's
promise
heightened
awareness
centred
on you
erased
everything else
the
game in front slipped away
yesterday's
storm blew out to sea
questions
became irrelevant
answers
dissolved
while
focusing on you
everything
became blurred
except
for you
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(217 B)
Still
trying to say
what
should be so easy
to
explain
how
forests
laugh
in rain
like
I do in you
how
the universe
took
15 billion years
to
bring forth
mobile
phones
and
only 30 years
you
how
your touch
makes
me
feel
like
a
christmas tree
waiting
to be
decorated
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1352 D)
I
reached through time
to
grab the bits
I
wanted tomorrow to be made of
like
any creator would
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(602 B)
I
planted an acorn seed
and
heard celery grow
in
its place
I
put my yacht out to sea
but
woke in the bath tub
with
a toy boat instead
the
weather report said
the
sun would shine
over
my tropical island today
but
i had to shovel through
four
feet of snow
to
get to my papaya plantation
You
said you would stay with me forever
and
we haven't met yet
I
swam
when
I should have flown
cried
instead of laughed
chased
cars
dogs
were driving
stood
naked
in
a crowded subway
And
told secrets on Oprah's show
otherwise
everything
seems quite normal
12-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(602)
It
was funny the way
we
danced
along
the shore
in
the moonlight
you
sang of rainbows
when
no storm was in sight
I
collected shells
in
the night
looking
for pearls
looking
for love
looking
for what I'd wake with
if
we ever stopped dancing
long
enough to dream
of
the moment
like
anyone having
a
near-love experience
would
12-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(735 D)
In
clashing colours
we
found every difference
but
a taste
of
each experience
that
was free
in
clashing colours
12-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(558 C)
Rushed
through
all
we could have
Leaping
brushed-fired passions
devoured
us
you
opened
I
gave
you
cried
I
whispered
you
held on
I
let go
filling
you with every man's desire
ACCUMULATED
EVOLUTIONARY WANT
and
in the moment
all
creation held her breath
wondering
if such fulfillment
was
possible
as
we rushed through
all
we could have
in
one final release
that
is now
forever
imprinted
on my consciousness
a
mutating cell in all future creation.
12-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1232)
I
waited for the final song
one
last curtain call
a
good bye kiss
and
a passing caress
You
were to become a star
here
on earth
or
in the sky
I
never knew which
But
I knew
as
the applause faded
and
your whispers rang in my ears
that
what I wanted
what
you gave
what
I took
was
just a borrow
an
overdue loan
from
this stage
just
a further experience
and
without saying thank you
too
many times
I
salute you
and
ask for nothing more
but
an encore
before
this stage
dissolves
into
some
future production
12-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(771 B)
If
nature
changed
her mind
as
often as I do
there'd
be blizzards in Pago Pago
spring
in the winter
the
sun would stop then go the opposite direction
cows
would give eggs on Tuesdays
flowers
on Friday
and
there'd be one of me for each day of the week
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage( 400 B)
Like
when no one notices
what
is
Is
the best performance possible
while
the rain washes away
the
stage
and
in suspended thought
birds
migrate
with
little notice
of
what is
is
the best performance
possible.
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(922)
Everyone
stood in line
waiting
to be selected
like
a best thought of the day
waits
to be realized
Friday
waits Thursday to end
a
rose waits to be given
and
I wait for you to see
I
have selected you
like
I hope you have me
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(188)
too
much junk mail
too
many sensational headlines
and
too few peaceful times
left
me looking for a comfortable seat
in
the midst of a tornado
just
to watch
not
be changed
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1617)
I
was ready
times
weren't
I
was there
space
wasn't
I
wanted you
you
didn't know
time
and space
didn't
exist
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(834)
One
step from the finish
I
realized
I
was in the wrong race
But
it was o.k.
because
I was only one step away
from
starting a new one
this
time correctly run
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1162)
I
made
a
hundred
photocopies
of
the moment
I
met you
and
hand
them out
to
myself
each
time
the
moment
tries
to
slip
away
12-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(553 B)
Here
we are
funny
to say
flowers
laugh
rain
screams
dove
for evening meal
but
though
maybe
it
is possible
funny
to say
we
never knew
that
it truly
is
this way
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(276)
I
was just getting warmed up
decades
of experience
(lay
like tumbled children's blocks)
picked
up and used again
to
make a bridge
recycled
experiences
led
me to be free once again
like
before blocks of life
began
to tumble
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(628)
each
moment chosen
like
ripen fruit
a
perfect gift
each
magical touch
the
taste of
new
fallen snow
and
the glow of a first touch
is
nothing but perfect
in
each moment chosen
12-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(169 B)
Surprised
by the movement
through
space
of
what I wanted
as
it pushed aside
all
resistance
and
made room in chaos
for
all
I
wanted
12-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1365 B)
Each
time I turn around
facing
direction's perspective
laughs
like time
in
the rain
does
12-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(198)
On
the back of yesterday
I
wrote what happened
How
the morning exploded
day
gave meaning
freedom
flew
and
so did I
on
the back of yesterday
I
never wished for now
to
be so far away
from
then
and
remembered so well
12-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1165 B)
Children
are not
the
souvenirs of love
but
travelling
theme
parks
they
are
12-14-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(116)
There
were so many choices
I
fell asleep
and
dreamt each one
complete
that
is why
I
see rainbows
when
others see clouds
And
so should we.
12-14-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1489)
If
every direction traveled
arrived
at the perfect destination
Discovery
forever
would
stand behind
closed
doors
laughing
at us
12-14-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(349)
A
close score
with
little time left
all
the players
waited
in evening's fading
light
as
the stars began to shine
to
make complete every game
that
no longer
needs
morning to show
winners
like
we do
each
time we touch
12-15-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(6)
I
don't like art
I
don't like writing
that
is why I drew a poem
in
the sky
just
to watch it
disappear
like
I do
each
time I read
what
I write.
12-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(330)
Like
any good audience
we
are still waiting for
the
punch line
2000
years later
12-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(908)
In
mistaken identities
trees
sprout wings
birds
grow roots
and
gravity tossed us into space
like
love
with
no way
to
keep us down to earth
12-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(565 B)
Morning
filled
night
before
breeze
returned
with
your scents
your
desire
still
fulfilling
bringing
now
with
your
return
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(976)
If
only images
were
found
to
be real
I
would become lost
in
the image of you
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(405 B)
I
thought it was the end of the world
when
the changes began.
As
if time really cared
or
the sky would disappear
or
elephants would stop dancing.
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(66 B)
With
no time left
I
asked to spend forever with you
With
no space
I
asked
if
there was room for me
In
the frozen wastelands
I
looked for a tropical taste of you.
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(2043)
I
have given you
all
the great lines
but
we have yet
to
dance
I
have shown all the possibilities
you
have yet to show any
I
have visited the stars
you
are still here
and
the point is
we
never go
beyond
our own
perspective
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(462)
While
focusing on you
I
lost sight
of
everything else
that
is why
I'm
wet
from
walking into the sea
thinking
I was walking
into
you
That
is why
I'm
bleeding
from
cutting myself in two
on
a mirror
I
was hanging
thinking
it was you
That
is how
I
became lost
thinking
I had found you
focusing
too
on
me.
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1977)
Brandy
coloured morning
revealed
last
night
never
ending
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99 D)
Something
to reach for like dawn
at
the horizon
rain
above
clouds
and
love
before
doubt
something
to reach for
never
having
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1312)
We
touched the stars
before
we were ready
NOW
without
oxygen
without
bodies
without
life
WE
search
how
to come back down-to-earth
once
again
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1835)
It's
o.k. to take a break
waste
some time
take
a nap
go
for a walk
fondle
the
sun is expected
to
shine
for
a few billion
more
years
and
so can we
or
at least
some
part of
us
5-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(732)
We
are always
While
pushing past the limits once believed
I
tossed away bewilderment with
'I
don't think it is possible'
touching
space and understanding it too
so
that all achievments until now
were
nothing more
than
cave paintings
just
some muddled hieroglyphics
like
old age without reason
But
that's all behind
back
in humanity's nursery book stage
Freedom
is the real frontier
with
fear of guilt and misplaced beliefs
being
the savage native
hiding
in the psychic
waiting
to attack free thinking
with
primitive weapons
of
guilt, fear, and mysticism
But
it is too late
freedom
to know will conquer
and
push the only true-value frontier open
so
every universe
without
secret
is
left bare
to
enter
and
have
4/9/93
Good Friday Poem - Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1810 C)
In
change
dreams
come awake
in
sameness
dreams
go to sleep.
4-12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(558)
Desire
is the slave
of
freedom
4-13-92
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(155 b)
if
everyone knew
what
I know now
holy
cow
I'd
be out the door
for
ever more
that's
for sure
But
I'm not
so
here I am
waiting
for more
outside
your door
4-14-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(350)
In
chosen images
beliefs
reveal
what
is real
like
this moment does
rising
over a new horizon
in
unsettled times
where
seas
pierce
clouded evenings
tranquil
message
of
what is believed,
and
in tomorrow like again today
the
future's past
reveals
secret's timely wish's desire
held
like forever's reflection in today
again
found to be
everything
worth waiting for
so
as to say
yes
it was as real
as
ever it was meant to be.
4-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(558)
In
ancient thought
beyond
reason's pillars
everyone
came together
to
predict the future
in
Diana's shower
But
they turned on the video
and
forgot to leave behind
much
more
than
our ancient interpretation
in
times
that
dispels
all
(554)
Sun
doesn't see
moon
doesn't rise
But
we do
each
time
we
watch
where
we're going
somewhere
beyond
destiny's
favorite thought
4-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1362)
The
past
paints
tomorrow
But
if we let go of it
tomorrow
will
have
no
added colour
to
make it complete
(and
memories only sleep)
'93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1424)
This
moment
is
so close to perfect
that
to make it so now
is
no
more
than
a simple
rearrangement
of the way it is
with
open door
as
an invitation
for
nature
to
join
in
too
'93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1498 C)
This
life
like
so many before
is
but a shadow
of
our selves
travelling
at the speed of laughter
through
the universe
on
our way
to
a fish and chip shop
the
only planet
that
sells them
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1497 B)
THE
BIG BANG
WAS
JUST
A
WHIMPER
COMPARED
TO
WHEN
WE MET
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1388)
I
awoke before time began
before
music
before
thought
before
silence erupted
into
the beginning of now
with
all the followers
still
waiting to awake
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(298)
FORGOTTEN
FREEDOMS
FOUND
FROZEN
FAVOUR
FOREVER
FREE
4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(228)
How
good we are tomorrow
depends
on how bad
we
are today
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(284)
The
flower of youth
blossomed
while
I looked
the
other way
now
in memory
I
return
to
when my name
was
the one called
in
morning's sleepless desire
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1402)
Forgetfulness
of now
took
me back to when
I
remember you
whispering
to me
'never
forget this moment
and
it will last forever
somewhere
in mind' Now I am a forgotten foreigner
forevermore
full
of
forgetfulness
of
now
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(228)
For
every gate
that
opens
a
crowd cheers
I
can't see
but
I hear
as
the melody of strangers
asking
for change
like
any weekend weather person would
9-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(218 B)
The
only predictable future
we
well
ever
experience
is
when we do
what
we do
of
what we chose to do
4-19-93
(936 B)
I
couldn't
t
wait
so
I rushed toward
the
open door...
only
realizing there was no floor
on
the other side
after
my free-fall had begun
lucky
for me
I
carry a parachute everywhere
for
just such an emergency
4-12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(317 A)
In
broken images
and
meaningless dreams
the
future is drafted
and
superglued into place
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(554)
While
breaking shackles off of
who
we perceived we were to each other
we
fell in love
with
who we would have been
if
broken shackles long ago
had
shown us now - then
11-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 C)
While
waiting for a new leader
humanity
put on clean wool socks
and
though it is true
everyone
was as lost as ever
we
all had warm feet
that
didn't smell
and
with over five billion people
that
is what is important.
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1814 B)
Platonistic
specialization
almost
stopped love's integrating freedom
from
taking flight
out
of the mystic plagued night
that
descended so long ago
but
now nears its end
as
we break the 2000 year old shackles
off
of the slaves
we
have been
4-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1204)Until just a moment ago
everything
made sense
now
I
will have to
start
all over again
so
I say it was logical
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1574 B)
In
the silence of my memory
you
whispered a song
we
once danced too
under
a spring filled song
in
Golden Gate Park in 1967
And
in closed eyes
I
now disappear
into
your long ago promise
'You'll
never need anyone else but me'
But
the ticking of my clock
the
barking of the dog
my
children yelling for dinner
makes
me open my eyes
remembering
I
hadn't thought of you
for
at least 20 years
until
now.
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(649 C)
I
am moving to Saturn
where
there is more room
more
moons
it's
a heavy place
the
days are longer
and
it takes 28 years to equal one year
so
now
I
can finally get all those things done
I
always said I would
and
go multi-moon gazing
with
the ones I love
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(292)
today
is better than yesterday
tomorrow
will be worse
than
last Friday
But
next Tuesday
will
make yesterday look sad
so
there!
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1531 B)
Childhood
spent
childhood
saved
childhood's
woven parts
superglued
together to remember
the
moment each piece was a part of something bigger
that
went broom broom click click
tick
tick like a clock
(that
measured the passing days of childhood)
Children
never grow old
they
just sprout wings and fly away
returning
now and then
to
look at how everything
once
was together
once
was a part of a movement
once
was a part of everything that really mattered
until
like
sections of life they were reassembled
in
a mosaic of memory
just
abbreviations of symbolic wholes
where
one piece represents
what
was played with for weeks at a time
in
the labyrinth of childhood
and
now is but a collage
on
one of the walls of my life.
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(106)
they've
taken away
the
walls
left
me
with
no boundaries
no
blocked views
no
hiding place
I
roll up into a ball
and
roll out into the open space
I
never knew existed
until
they took away my walls
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1465 B)
While
stretching logic
like
some do the truth
I
noticed an empty explanation
in
the corner of a theory that could have unified it all
so
now I am proud to present
the
X factor that will unify all of existence
that
holds it all together
that
was there at the Big Bang
and
will be there at the Big Crunch
and
the little nibbles afterwards
and
wait for it
it
is laughter
that
holds it all together
Because
it is true (I was there)
the
beginning of this present universe
started
with a sneeze in the middle of a laugh
and
all the galaxies
are
just droplets from that sneeze
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1811 B)
the
meaning of aloha
(hello
- goodbye)
changed
when you never returned
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1410)
It
is better
to
seek agreement with ourselves
than
solicit it from someone else
don't
you agree?
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(682)
I
liked last month so much
I
didn't change the calendar
and
that made me so happy
I
decided to change it back
all
the way to when we met
twenty
years ago
when
I was only a day younger
than
I am now
according
to my calendar
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(496)
I
talk fast
because
I have so much to say
while
others listen slowly
so
they don't have to hear it all
but
that's o.k.
Because
the words in between
seldom
have much meaning
anyway
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(662 B)
...whether
is is better
to
be creative and poor
or
rich and uncreative
I
will know once I become rich
after
I find
the
most creative way to do it
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 A)
While
putting things in order
I
noticed how random
the
galaxies were tossed about
and
thought if they can do that
so
can I and that is why\
everything
looks so untidy
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1810 D)
I
wanted to believe
what
I used to
but
reality
swept
away the myths
But
I remember the stories
and
tell them to my children
who
never believed them
to
begin with
4-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(782 B)
There
are over 5 billion people on the planet
and
only one in this space
at
this time in history
with
these thoughts
and
it will never occur again
4-21-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1429 B)
I
thought it was
sounds
of waves crashing upon the shore
waking
me from sleep
But
it was just my stomach
telling
me to forget
my
diet
and
eat a snack
in
rhythm to waves upon the shore
4-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(668)
All
the strategy
of
all the people of all time
can't
stop the rising sun
or
love, death, taxes, birth
all
the philosophies, myths, beliefs
have
not changed the colour of the sky
the
size of a mountain
or
anything much of all
which
gives little meaning
to
why
ham
on rhyme
is
better than tofu on sprouts
8-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(14 B)
It
was as if
you
knew all along
and
had to wait
all
these years
for
me to realize
we
have been together
in
one form or another
since
the beginning
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(735 B)
Even
with
all
the distraction
of
these times
I
managed
to
deliver fax-free
in
person
all
my feelings for you
to
you
and
again tomorrow
too
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(178)
It
was as if yesterday
never
had ended
But
was just put on pause
for
us to experience today
so
we could go back to it
tomorrow
again
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(734)
change
creates love
love
creates change
create
to change
change
to create
love
to change
change
to love
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(104)
So
simple to please
so
please be simple
and
let complications melt
like
I do
when
we are one
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1342)
I
wanted the last word
and
that's why I'm still here
in
the middle of time
and
I'll be around at the end
if
it too
just
to have
the
final say
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(776)
*
466 (12x12)
NEC
Just
before God
went off on holiday
I asked if things would change
There was no answer
that was when I realized
God had left earlier
than anticipated
leaving us
in change
to sort out the mess
we're in
June 7 1993 Victor Harbor copyright
Terrell Neuage868
*=465 11x11
NEC
In the fickle
realms of reality
meanings
are invented
as explanations
while in my world
where reality
is kept out by walls of gold
I am free
in the security
of illusion
and the realism of magic
cascading
through senses
that never were
to be included
in this world
but
and more ?
No! There was never meant to be anything
but this
passing dreams
we have been
seduced by
8-7-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell
Neuage580
* = 464
NEC
LIFE
IS SHORT AND STRANGE
LIKE
AN ANCIENT POEM
BUT
LIVES FOREVER
LIKE AN ANCIENT POEM
JUNE 8 93 894 Victor Harbor copyright
Terrell Neuage110 VICTORIA STREET
not
quite
but
close enough to have a name
different
but
up close it all looks the same
meanings
slip
away before dawn's early reveal
your
touch
for
a moment was almost real
tomorrow
maybe
longer
pattern
upon pattern
assembled
secrets
chant
my name
who
am I?
but
just another not a name
lingering
on the tip
of
too many swallowed
meanings
and
by listening once again
the
whispering shadow
reveals
your
touch made me real
7/28/93
110 Victoria Street (1134)
THE
WHISPERING MIST
REVEALED
YOUR
TOUCH MADE ME REAL
SO
NO LONGER
A
SHADOW TOO
I'D
BE
7/28/93
100 Victoria Street (1486)
in
Sarajevo, Belfast, Beirut, Victor Harbor, Los Angeles,
trees
grow flowers bloom rain falls
doing
what they've been governed to do always
like
humans
fulfilling
genetic destiny
to
war, dispute, desire but never learn
and
over looking nature
who
will be and always has been unlike humans
who
were created
for
nature's amusement
and
who will stay
until
something better
can
be created
(this
time with some proper genes)
a
few dawns
down
the road
a
few yawns
left
in the mold
a
few pawns
of
nature's soul
then
wooosh
only
nature
left
humans
left
7/29/93
(614(
STARS
SO FAR AWAY
take
no notice of our daily
wants
wishes
dreams
desires
loves
losses
games
growths
problems
possessions
beliefs
bingo
troubles
thoughts
adventures
appreciations
families
fortunes
But
live their cycles
no
matter what we do
like
love
so
far away
yet
always
within
sight
7/29/93
110 Victoria Street (1352)
Why
only in my waking dream
before
dawn's shadow stealing smile
do
I find us
so
wrapped together
like
once we knew
but
too soon forgot?
You
not on the earth
me so
imprisoned in this form
dreams
link us when I am not quite here
And
you so surely elsewhere
is
memory playing with mirrors deep in my brain
this
perfect hologram of you
reflecting
our love forever
though
where forever we will be one
I
do not know
But
you are there constantly
(except
when I open my eyes
which
I do less all the time in fear of losing you forever
before
I find the way to you)
Handing
out your smile
asking
me to follow but I can't
the
dawn came you left today alone
once
again I am blind with my eyes open
7/29/93
110 Victoria Street (1818)
the
proof I have
that
much I had
to
prove
is
simple
I'm
a man
born
of hand-me-down-genes
explorers,
conquerors, kings, lovers, saints, jesters
it's
in the genes
fighter
pilot, basketballer, rocker, movie star
it's
in the dreams
today's
dreams tomorrow's genes
the
only proof
a
man will ever need
7/29/93 110 Victoria Street (1424)
just
as I wrote
in
New Orleans, Paris
Honolulu,
Fiji, Berlin
Sydney,
Auckland, London Bangkok
And
the places in between
I
will write someday
in
a space colony
flying
past Mars
or
on a moon of Jupiter
just
as my ancestors
from
caveman, to Plato, Jesus, King Arthur, handfuls of Kennedys
Don
Juan-Don Quixote-Don Terrell
and
the ones in between
I
will write on and on and on
just
as all men before me
'how
doth I get me a woman tonight'
TECHNOLOGY
CHANGES
MAN'S
MIND NEVER WILL
7/29/93
110 Victoria Street (868)
winter
on parade
frozen
waitings
wanting
wonderful
though weird
we
were
writing
upon frozen consciousness
like
human beliefs
frozen
in place
for
thousands of years
needing
a
good nuclear winter
to
start the cycle
over
once
again
7/30/93 110 victoria street (1816)
I
had you in my dream
we
made morning come
I
had you in my dream
you
gave birth to our shadow
I
had you in my dream
safe-sex
again this morning
7/29/93 110 Victoria Street (456)
POSSESSION
while
in a dream
silent
mist's shadows
its
illusive impulses
becoming
incoming coming
wrapped
by your desire
projected
in astral illusions
I
opened up you entered
took
my body for a spin
around
la Grand Palais
through
la Arc de Triomphe
(where
'we' had a few in a nearby shadow)
then
the disco
on
Boulevard la Villette
where
'we' charged a night of pleasure
on
my wife's credit cards
now
awake me in my own body
back
at the hotel
I
try to explain to my wife
that
it was not me on the all night carousel
as
love's scents ooze out of my body
and
my hoarse gin breath vainly whispers
but
but but
it
wasn't me I was asleep
while
my body was being used
as
all men's are in the final analysis
7/30
110 Victoria Street (1810)
The
last time
I
saw my love
was
where she stood swaying in scented smile
selling
her body
to
passing relatives and friends
on
her fund raising drive
to
buy Bibles for the Russians
and
provide low cost love
for
the poor
july
31/93 110 Victoria Street
if
all my heroes knew me
would
they still believe
they
were just
a
mistake of nature
too?
7/31/93
110 Victoria street (342)
Too
often
while
meaning something else
the
rain fell
the
farmer cheered
sport
fans jeered
Too
often
while
meaning something else
the
waves swelled
fishermen
ran ashore
surfers
grabbed their boards
Too
often
while
meaning something else
I
ask for love
but
never for long
7/31/93
110 Victoria Street (1552)
The
last time
I
saw my love
was
where she stood smiling
selling
her body
to
passing relatives and friends
on
her fund raising drive
to
buy Bibles for the Russians
and
provide low cost love
for
the poor
7-31-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell NeuageSA (1408)
While
being slaves of love
men
will never be free
to
be possessed by nature
naturally
8/01
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 A)
men
are born free
(according
to the constitution)
but
all women cost
(according
to reality)
8-10-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(970)
contact
made
like
being one
past
minutes
equalled
rolling
forever
automatically
like
thoughts once so sure
to
find the reason
for
this
is
too
and
little
more
8-10-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(130)
While
writing worthless rhymes
I
fell off of a verbal
burble
and
never found
my
way back
8-01-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1815 B)
I
met a man
whose
stories came true
as
soon as they were heard
I
met a woman
whose
songs came true
as
soon as they were heard
I
met a child
whose
wishes came true
as
soon as they were heard
But
I've never met
anyone
who
knew
how
this
ends
August
11 93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(538)
Driven
passion
leaps
hurdles
forward
thrusting
life
changes
in
blinks
faster
than Pluto's stolen shadows
past
burn fast
the
new me
you
see
is
to be free
without
thought
of
patience
for
the role
I
once played
10-02-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(158)
While
wishfully waiting
we
watched where we were
sneak
us into
last
night's remembered touch
and
while loosing control
lost
in your breath
we
disappeared
never
to be seen again
11-03-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1815 A)
Like
a new page of life
turned
too many times
morning's
misting memories
made
me
remember
you
when
we galloped forests
to
our allegoric lake
We
rolled in laughing love
and
captured fleeing passions
that
never wanted flight
to
begin with
Like
now
in
too many turned pages\
to
remember
when
first
we
started over
this
our allegoric night
11-04-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(906)
Asking
answers' allegiance
while
not
leaves
outdoors there
11-05-93
V ictor Harbor (56)
SHOCKED!
Perception's
reflected illusion
reversed
reality
I
couldn't see
But
only beg
I
couldn't feel
beliefs
were all wrong
morning
was night
flowers
turned to seed
touch
turned to stone
that
made no words
I
slept while awake
But
IT was all a dream
this
isn't
no
longer
Shocked!
11-05-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1260)
forgotten
foreign feelings
forged
freedoms
final
fate
no
longer here
11-6-93
(218 b)
without
all the differences
there
would
be
no
picture
11-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1819 b)
In
dawn's early revival
I
cheered
to
know
this
show
I
was part of
once
again
11-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(559b)
While
at centre stage
I
changed my script
so
this performance
you
see
is
but a change
I'm
going through
11-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 a)
I
won
I
lost
I
was
I
am
11-06-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(856)
Changes
came quickly before summer's settled passions
oaths
were whispered as spring sown seeds settled passions
the
times surely so seemingly sullen
would
be remembered when now
would
be read as ancient history
inventions
failing prospering believers
found
anything to hold onto gelatinous as first love
But
there is the future no one knows everyone predicts
Though
no one is quite correct
Touch
my mind in pulled forth desires
dig
deep death's dwindling demand
take
changes
reshape
nature's woken woven womb
whisper
to the deaf
wave
to the blind
walk
with the lame
wake
the dead
wonder
what was where when no one was there
Fleeing
freedom fondles the enslaved
shackles
clasp the different
But
for all the troubles
all
the worries
all
the struggles
That
this all important tragedy firmly hangs onto
Nothing
can be greater that to know some day
This
moment will be viewed as but a hiccup in nature
when
changes came quickly
and
oaths were whispered only to never be harvested
The
future came too fast to think of now as anything more
than
a passing shadow eclipsed
11-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(104)
Your
touch
the
change
global
warming
here
to stay
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1900 - D)
initial
surrender
lost
time
borrowed
destiny
controlled
laughter
on
we could go
choice
so rare
or
here stay
dwell;
on
the
whence
of
it all
11-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(572)
I
thought we could share the moment
as
if it were
the
last, the first, even forever
we'd
be unleashed nature
watching
humanity begging for rest
we
would be the condemned's
final
wish
the
cry at birth
the
anguish at the end
the
fireworks at the completion
of
the games
the
ecstasy of every experience
pulsating
in one Grand Moment
I
would be your knight, love, knight, love, king, slave,
fool,
hero...
even
a new-age male
if
such a perversion
was
your wish
Oh!
I'm sorry
you
just were asking me what time it was
here,
in front of the caulaflowers and parsley
at
the supermarket
11-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(680)
Caught
in between changes
without
names
theories
without masks
desires
without dreams
caught
in between voids
where
changes create
voids
creating
change
10-8-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(102)
Forgotten
once
again
like
watching life pass too quickly
without
holding onto
passing
reality
nothing
comes to be forgotten
and
a man in the last row
waves
his hands and yells
"forgotten
I'm
forgotten"
But
no one hears him
as
the crowds huddle together
trying
to remember
what
they had forgotten
11-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(218 b)
I
tossed away meaning
like
I do apple cores
But
it's o.k.
the
seeds will grow
and
produce meaning
like
I once did
before
tossed away moments
were
used for the landfill programme
at
the edge of the swamp
to
build skyscraping apartments
for
people to sit in
wondering
why there were so many memories
tossed
about.
11-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(692)
So
much the end here:
less
likely futures' glimpse
echoes
momentary freedom;
and
here brought forth meaning
holds
wind chimes'
rhyme
nature's
time
the
end falls
from
sight
the
past strips naked
and
sun bathes alongside memory's reflected copulation
HEAR
so
much the end.
11-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1332)
When
the patterns changed
so
much the end looked clear
everything
was answered
time
lost prescription space discovered dimension
all
figured out the way it should be
why
it never is I don't recall
each
time a different ending
still
the same
always
far from the way it should be
if,
all-figured-out
was
true.
11-14-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1782)
While
building on what went before
I
saw tomorrow
glance
around the corner
and
thank me
for
the foundations
for
future's experience.
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809)
Too
late the thaw
when
winter's open door
lays
waste
hasty
autumn's retreat
and
ice slices
fields
of harvest forgotten
too
late too late
like
life known
and
frozen in winter's
crystal
memory
waiting
for spring
like
every lover does
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1540)
While
laughing at the changes
even
making believe they weren't real
this
moment took flight
with
me in tow
And
I have no intention of every returning
to
say
these
changes now
are
anything more
than
forever lost in flight.
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1810 A)
Each
variation
is
but an interpretation
of
choice.
11-17-932
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(170)
While
floating upon
thoughts
of you
the
world slipped away
leaving
me to wonder
where'd
I'd be
if
I wasn't floating upon thoughts of you
11-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage((1809 C)
What
we shared
even
tomorrow will remember
flying
free forever foreign feelings
while
watching where we merge
as
always we expected
we
would
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1744)
Without
appearing
repetitious
all
I want to know is
have
I presented before
what
now
so
often it seems I search
the
touch