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COLLECTION 1 |
Often
I reached out
Often
I came close
Often
I pulled back
if
there was a way to change
wave
a magic wand
command
a jeanie
roll
a lucky dice
Take
me deep
Swallow
my pride
Tie
me down
Chain
me up
Let
bleed desire's fire
on
freedom's alter
before
sacred oaths
dissolve
saturn's grip that strangles silken whispers
before
YES is breathed
and
dies without belief
Like
I do
each
time I reach out
then
pull back
12-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1151)
While
reviewing the past
the
way it was
how
we were
such
easy thoughts
nothing
ever to worry
I
realized
I
saw
I
knew
now
was just a cartoon
of
what would have been
if
we could have
been
now
then
12-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1990)
Broke
the mode
of
who I was
now
you see
the
source of my shadow
the
end of my projection
the
face behind every mask.
Just
before
I
began a new day
another
era
a
beautiful me
alone
in flight
over
my broken mode.
So
the who you see
who
looks like me
but
acts so free
is
but master of ceremony
grand
performance
finally
on stage
with
little left to offer
but
the
way I am
again
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in
broken mode
once
again I am.
12-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99D)
So
sure
that
this was the right direction
everything
always
had
led to this spot
until
we discovered
that
we weren't here
and
neither was the spot
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1342 B)
We
drew a line
in
the sand
but
the tides
washed
us away
leaving
the line
that
we drew
dividing
us
from
being one
to
fight the tides
that
came
and
took us
away
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1745 B)
Buried
treasures
like
hidden talents
leaves
us poor
and
all alone
with
no one
sharing
what
we'd have
if
hidden treasures
and
buried talents
weren't.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99 D)
Shattered
illusions
Scattered
conclusions
Battered
delusions
dissolved
by the dawn of reason
Now
nothing is left
but
created reality
so
clear
I
can see forever
Hello
New Morning
Good
Bye every night
12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1256)
At
a final frontier
we
conquered fear
to
devour
each
other
like
any
cannibal
of love
would
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(62 D)
The
day after
The
night before
left
me
wanting
to wake with you
once
again
in
the day after
the
night before
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1405)
This
year so quickly went
I
went back
to
do it once again
just
to know
it
really had happened.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1565)
I
looked in the dictionary
to
find meaning
but
no explanation
cleared
up
my
wonderment
of
what
this
means
You
and I
three
words in the dictionary
one
in my mind.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(512)
I
always thought
one
more would be enough
and
when it is
it
will be
But
for now
here
I am
only
one more
from
being enough.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(288)
I
was wondering
what
will be the last word said
the
final line written
the
last caress
the
final bite
before
I die
then
I realized
I
wouldn't remember anyway
so
on I ramble
write
touch
and
eat
like
any eternal consumer
would
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(842)
If
each thing done
we
do as
that
to be our masterpiece
then
our life
that
will be
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(349 A)
Again
my
friend
the
end
does
send
this
trend
again
ABOUT
FACE
CHANGE
DIRECTION
whisper
loudly
the
blind feel what we don't see
the
deaf see what we don't hear
the
lonely know every face in the crowd
but
at the end
I'll
still be your friend
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(6 B)
'Lucky
me'
said
the tree
'I
will never be
lost
on a freeway
short
on what to say
found
shopping
seen
hopping
lucky
me
lucky
me
said
the tree
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(956 D)
All
the advice ever asked
never
led anyone to the stars
all
the questions pursued
never
changed the unexpected
all
the theories so explained
never
ever
and
it will still all be
the
same
again
tomorrow
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(12)
'Oh
No! Oh No!'
said
the tree
and
all the people stopped
to
question a tree
that
would talk
but
never more
did
that tree say
And
that is how
the
religion of the tree began
and
why everyone
chants
'Oh
No! Oh No!'
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1155 B)
All
our possessions
are
but props
to
insulate our space
before
we became to know
that
we never
needed
them anyway.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(12 B)
Cold!
Only
the physical body knows
take
away the cold
I'm
still here
take
away my body
the
cold remains
if
I could
I
would be
a
naked thought sitting on an arctic flow
and
diving into frozen illusion tundra
I'd
swim in the cold
and
pretend my body was with me
like
I do now
in
this cold world
I've
been given to wander.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(120)
As
fragile as each new moment is
the
strength to proceed into in
is
but BELIEF
given
wings
to
give flight
when
needed to be.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 D a)
Nature
brought forth humans
because
dinosaurs
couldn't paint
amoebas
wouldn't carry a tune
apes
refused to write poetry
and
there was no one to understand this.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1002 B)
The
reason we do everything
done
we
did
is
to look at it at the end
to
see if
we
did
it
correctly
since
the beginning.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1467 A)
Like
a poem
going
no where
a
song
without
a tune
seeds
planted in the desert
and
love with no dawn
life
is
without
direction.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(908 B)
We
had so many backup plans
that
we crashed
backing
up
never
seeing
where
we were going.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1769)
While
looking for the perfect gift
silence
screamed at me
'GIVE
NOTHING
BECAUSE
THAT IS ALL
WE
SHALL HAVE AT THE END'
and
now
we
could get use to
getting
it early.
12-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1983)
I
never wanted to be
anything
more
than
everything
that
you are
I
never wanted to be white
or
so poor
so
unknown
I'm
not even a part of history's pathways
but
if there weren't shadows like me
there
would never be
stars
like you.
12-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell NeuageSA (571 B)
The
last verse
was
in your purse
all
you had to do
was
open and see
but
you shot through
and
left me free
Yet
always the waves
reach
the horizon
poems
seldom rhyme
nature
does not understand humans
and
the last verse
was
in your purse
lost
with my heart
amongst
all the things
you
carry
wherever
you fly.
12-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1427)
If
I said good night
would
that change the orbit of the sun
make
the collide with Mars
or
a garden snail learn to run
probably
not probably not
because
within preconceived ideas
giraffes
don't become butterflies
love
never dies
and
I don't hear you
saying
good night to me.
12-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(380)
We
don't live in troubled times
troubled
times live in us
swallow
butterflies
eat
rainbows
drink
stars
DIGESTED
CHANGE
takes
away
troubled
times.
12-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1743)
I
keep thinking it's a different day
another
life
who
opened the windows
and
let in
these
times
this
place
that
reflection
which
could never be
anything
more
than
a different day
another
life.
Often
I reached out
Often
I came close
Often
I pulled back
if
there was a way to change
wave
a magic wand
command
a jeanie
roll
a lucky dice
Take
me deep
Swallow
my pride
Tie
me down
Chain
me up
Let
bleed desire's fire
on
freedom's alter
before
sacred oaths
dissolve
saturn's grip that strangles silken whispers
before
YES is breathed
and
dies without belief
Like
I do
each
time I reach out
then
pull back
12-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1151)
While
reviewing the past
the
way it was
how
we were
such
easy thoughts
nothing
ever to worry
I
realized
I
saw
I
knew
now
was just a cartoon
of
what would have been
if
we could have
been
now
then
12-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1990)
Broke
the mode
of
who I was
now
you see
the
source of my shadow
the
end of my projection
the
face behind every mask.
Just
before midnight
I
began a new day
another
era
a
beautiful me
alone
in flight
over
my broken mode.
So
the who you see
who
looks like me
but
acts so free
is
but master of ceremony
grand
performance
finally
on stage
with
little left to offer
but
the
way I am
again
NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
in
broken mode
once
again I am.
12-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99D)
So
sure
that
this was the right direction
everything
always
had
led to this spot
until
we discovered
that
we weren't here
and
neither was the spot
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1342 B)
We
drew a line
in
the sand
but
the tides
washed
us away
leaving
the line
that
we drew
dividing
us
from
being one
to
fight the tides
that
came
and
took us
away
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1745 B)
Buried
treasures
like
hidden talents
leaves
us poor
and
all alone
with
no one
sharing
what
we'd have
if
hidden treasures
and
buried talents
weren't.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99 D)
Shattered
illusions
Scattered
conclusions
Battered
delusions
dissolved
by the dawn of reason
Now
nothing is left
but
created reality
so
clear
I
can see forever
Hello
New Morning
Good
Bye every night
12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1256)
At
a final frontier
we
conquered fear
to
devour
each
other
like
any
cannibal
of love
would
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(62 D)
The
day after
The
night before
left
me
wanting
to wake with you
once
again
in
the day after
the
night before
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1405)
This
year so quickly went
I
went back
to
do it once again
just
to know
it
really had happened.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1565)
I
looked in the dictionary
to
find meaning
but
no explanation
cleared
up
my
wonderment
of
what
this
means
You
and I
three
words in the dictionary
one
in my mind.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(512)
I
always thought
one
more would be enough
and
when it is
it
will be
But
for now
here
I am
only
one more
from
being enough.
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(288)
I
was wondering
what
will be the last word said
the
final line written
the
last caress
the
final bite
before
I die
then
I realized
I
wouldn't remember anyway
so
on I ramble
write
touch
and
eat
like
any eternal consumer
would
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(842)
If
each thing done
we
do as
that
to be our masterpiece
then
our life
that
will be
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(349 A)
Again
my
friend
the
end
does
send
this
trend
again
ABOUT
FACE
CHANGE
DIRECTION
whisper
loudly
the
blind feel what we don't see
the
deaf see what we don't hear
the
lonely know every face in the crowd
but
at the end
I'll
still be your friend
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(6 B)
'Lucky
me'
said
the tree
'I
will never be
lost
on a freeway
short
on what to say
found
shopping
seen
hopping
lucky
me
lucky
me
said
the tree
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(956 D)
All
the advice ever asked
never
led anyone to the stars
all
the questions pursued
never
changed the unexpected
all
the theories so explained
never
ever
and
it will still all be
the
same
again
tomorrow
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(12)
'Oh
No! Oh No!'
said
the tree
and
all the people stopped
to
question a tree
that
would talk
but
never more
did
that tree say
And
that is how
the
religion of the tree began
and
why everyone
chants
'Oh
No! Oh No!'
12-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1155 B)
All
our possessions
are
but props
to
insulate our space
before
we became to know
that
we never
needed
them anyway.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(12 B)
Cold!
Only
the physical body knows
take
away the cold
I'm
still here
take
away my body
the
cold remains
if
I could
I
would be
a
naked thought sitting on an arctic flow
and
diving into frozen illusion tundra
I'd
swim in the cold
and
pretend my body was with me
like
I do now
in
this cold world
I've
been given to wander.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(120)
As
fragile as each new moment is
the
strength to proceed into in
is
but BELIEF
given
wings
to
give flight
when
needed to be.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 D a)
Nature
brought forth humans
because
dinosaurs
couldn't paint
amoebas
wouldn't carry a tune
apes
refused to write poetry
and
there was no one to understand this.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1002 B)
The
reason we do everything
done
we
did
is
to look at it at the end
to
see if
we
did
it
correctly
since
the beginning.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1467 A)
Like
a poem
going
no where
a
song
without
a tune
seeds
planted in the desert
and
love with no dawn
life
is
without
direction.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(908 B)
We
had so many backup plans
that
we crashed
backing
up
never
seeing
where
we were going.
12-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1769)
While
looking for the perfect gift
silence
screamed at me
'GIVE
NOTHING
BECAUSE
THAT IS ALL
WE
SHALL HAVE AT THE END'
and
now
we
could get use to
getting
it early.
12-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1983)
I
never wanted to be
anything
more
than
everything
that
you are
I
never wanted to be white
or
so poor
so
unknown
I'm
not even a part of history's pathways
but
if there weren't shadows like me
there
would never be
stars
like you.
12-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell NeuageSA (571 B)
The
last verse
was
in your purse
all
you had to do
was
open and see
but
you shot through
and
left me free
Yet
always the waves
reach
the horizon
poems
seldom rhyme
nature
does not understand humans
and
the last verse
was
in your purse
lost
with my heart
amongst
all the things
you
carry
wherever
you fly.
12-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1427)
If
I said good night
would
that change the orbit of the sun
make
the collide with Mars
or
a garden snail learn to run
probably
not probably not
because
within preconceived ideas
giraffes
don't become butterflies
love
never dies
and
I don't hear you
saying
good night to me.
12-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(380)
We
don't live in troubled times
troubled
times live in us
swallow
butterflies
eat
rainbows
drink
stars
DIGESTED
CHANGE
takes
away
troubled
times.
12-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1743)
I
keep thinking it's a different day
another
life
who
opened the windows
and
let in
these
times
this
place
that
reflection
which
could never be
anything
more
than
a different day
another
life.
12-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(485 B)
Woken
highway
reached
out
I
held on
through
the deserts
ofpver
rivers
into
mountains
This
highway
would
not listen to my pleas to stop
This
highway
had
heard desperate hooves
as
horses escaped in the 1800s
had
see Porches and Harleys
had
felt pain
joy
but
never aloneness
like
I so often have
This
highway
took
me to this realm
I
can not escape
my
family calls it madness
my
doctor - a genetic flaw
my
psychic said I was born to the highway
I
its slave
and
it will be this highway
at
the end of the tunnel
where
beings of light
will
throw me back
and
tell me to follow the highway
until
I know where it's headed
(like
if I would anyway - ever)
Now
I'm quite use to this highway which keeps going
into
other dimensions
like
I do
each
time I think of the road once traveled
the
road futures will travel
This
highway never ending.
12-31-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell NeuageSA. (2055)
Morning
swallowed
my
dreams
made
me hungry
to
see if
they'd
come true
like
everything else
I
believe in
does
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(978)
At
the beginning
when
all there was
was
already there
waiting
to be put together
like
you and me
and
the galaxies
too
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(64)
I
was so sleepy
I
slept standing up
while
the world
lay
on its side
watching
5-1-93
(838)
the
reason
we
are here
is
because dawn
doesn't
want to
come
alone
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1430)
like
steps through history
or
a wander through dreams
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beliefs,efs
grew
out of yesterday's crumbled ideologies
for
tomorrow's
individual
freedom
finally
won
to
take wings
never
to land again
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(916)
I
learned shorthand
speed
reading
computerization
experienced
Paris in a day
read
'Readers Digest'
condensed
pasteurized homogenized great novels
and
watched history of civilization
but
time stood still
when
your touch
became
so
involved
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(492)
I
concentrated so hard
on
this moment
that
yesterday and tomorrow disappeared
now
like
neapolitan ice cream
melted
contains
the former and the latter
in
a future past tense
that
has no ease
of
explanation
in
this moment
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(316 C)
There
is little difference
between
you and me
except
that I am conscious
of
the little difference
(even
calling them my own)
and
you see them
being
but variations
of
your greater self
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1430 D)
This
life goes so fast
that
when I die
I
will need
a
thousand years
to
review all that happened
in
this life
5-1-93
(1508)
The
continuous pouring out
of
creativity
fueled
forever's freedom's
perceptual
persuasion's performance
reflected
perfectly
for
me
to
know
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1394)
I
wouldn't want to live on Venus
because
there are no trees
nor
on Mars with its lack of flowers
and
there is no chocolate on Jupiter
or
ice cream on Mercury
while
on earth
everything
I want
is
between the sea
the
trees
and
the shopping mall.
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(858)
If
I knew how to write
a
poem
I
would
if
I knew how to sing
I
would
If
I could dance, take photos
paint
or tell your future
I
would
But
all I can do
is
build you a castle
in
the sand
and
offer it to you
before
the sea
take
it from me
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(376)
the
reason
we
don't have wings
is
because we don't have to fly north
for
the winter
But
can stay all winter-warm
wrapped
in each other's
warmth
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(946)
The
reason
we
keep coming to earth
is
to learn to stop dying
but
we keep
getting
into the Plato trap
of
this is it
why
keep going
5-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(946 C)
Not
every time
is
everything
going
to be
the
way it is
at
other times
But
instead
like
any spinning top everything gets a chance\
to
be close at hand
again
if
we see
5-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1130 C)
We
rush through life
like
we're in a hurry
to
get to the end
not
knowing what it is
except
that
it
will be different
than
the rush through
this
life is
5-593
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1768)
I
write
for
the same reasons
a
bird flies
far
from an oil slick
a
whale stays away
from
a stream
and
buffaloes avoid mountains
I
write only
to
find these answers
that
everyone else
already
knows
5-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(858)
As
if this moment could be preserved:
placed
in a safe-deposit box, frozen in space, cloned, kept intact
maybe
even used again
reincarnated,
transmigrated, resuscitated,
recycled
moments
in
another reality
a
paralleling toyed universe
where
earth-used moments
are
packaged and sold in day-fill programmes
Drive-thru-take-away-moment-services
'Yes
I will take three moments to go
two
yesterdays and one tomorrow'
And
I reach out to take a hold of a yesterday
the
moment we said good bye
in
hopes of renaming it and bringing it back to life
only
to discover the moment I wanted returned
had
been used by a patriot in an alternative drifting energy force
and
was no longer mine
to
have again
but
only to observe
in
mutational memory cells
reflecting
changing interpretation of
the
way it once was
11-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 C)
Before:
After was known
When
storms were calm
Emotions
describable
And
colour bland
Answers
were easy
But
meaning wasn't.
11-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(76)
Inside
wholeness
separation
is unknown
like
the splitting of an atom
is
unknown
inside
wholeness
But
the results
are
the same
11-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(576)
Curtains
drawn
over
windows of time
left
imagination
without
a view
like
an unlit night
shows
what can not be seen
when
all that is revealed
is
nothing at all
11-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(136 B)
In
the morning
I
looked forward to
meeting
the new me
that
I heard about
in
a dream
But
the new me
stayed
in the dream
while
mirror showed
the
same snapshot
it
had shown
every
other morning
fuzzy
wakefulness
far
from any dream thought possible
11-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(582)
While
sharing one another
with
each other
We
traded lives
and
worked on correcting
all
the faults we had
perceived
in each other
before
we had traded lives
then
we traded back
only
to die laughing
at
what we had created
Perhaps
next time
we'll
just accept and not modify
live
and not die
and
share
and not trade
11-30-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1993)
While
making way
for
new experiences
the
past was stored away
in
the attic
where
a spider
web-woven
devoured
the past
and
the present
ran
naked
knowing
such a fate
could
be escaped
if
experiences
no
longer were stored
away
11-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1985)
Without
risk
a
billion galaxies
would
have not begun to dance
with
questions
a
billion suns
in
our galaxy
would
have not take a first deep breath
without
nature
chaos
would have no joy
without
you
a
billion cells in my life
will
lose their spark.
21-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(2051)
Close
to where I want to be
But
never there
like
a future
reachable
not
holdable
hoped
for
not
known
seeable
But
only in a mist
before
form
covers
now
in
the never to be
so
in NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today once again
as
always
all
is within reach
and
parts even attainable
but
never all
never
all
never
all
12-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(118 B)
The
release
freed
me:
What
I once wanted
no
longer needed
flew
forth
like
love does
once
it has wings
12-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1479)
Fresh
start
reinvented
me
NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
is the reincarnation of yesterday
But
I'm not
Reinvented
me
is
all I can see.
12-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(231 B)
yy
Without
sounding
too
philosophical
spiritual
down-to-earth
metaphysical
or
psychological
I
need you
like
any farmer
the
rain
would
12-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(2051 B)
I
thought nature
was
blushing
from
listening to me
speak
about you
But
it was dawn
that
was making nature come
with
such colour
not
my description of you
12-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(674)
sky
cleared
darkened
thoughts
blocking
dawn
so
morning could see
my
wish had come true
you
and I free of
darkened
thoughts
12-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1290)
Just
when I understood
how
the final piece fitted
when
nature cheered
exploration
showed meaning
changes
laughed in reason
I
awoke
to
see clouds disperse
love
leap forward
success
call my name
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(873 B)
I
use to think
I
was the luckiest person
on
earth
to
be with you
now
I realize
you're
the lucky one
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(742)
I
didn't notice
a
difference between
day
and night
until
you pointed out
that
is how
we
are
shooting
stars
gone
too far
passing
passing
we'll
know soon
which
we're like
which
we're not
but
sameness
is
left out doors
somewhere
between
day
and night
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(321 B)
I
just thought we could stop
along
the coast of our first touch
atop
the mountain of desire first conquered
past
our first laugh over a whispering horizon
But
I just got a message from the dawn
saying
memory is better than promise
promise
is better than forever
forever
is better than forever
and
in circles
the
merry-go-round never strays
like
my feelings for you
always
changing
never
ceasing
always
finding
never
seeking
always
one
you're
never close
because
I'm always there
just
around a corner
in
the back of your memory
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(480)
I
wanted to be a legend
a
whisper amongst time's shadows
spoken
about in parliament
dreamt
of in alleys
cried
over
in
Delphi often
number
one on MTV
a
source of multiple orgasm\inner space colonization\political revolution
the
dawn at road's end
And
I was
somewhere
in time
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(778)
I
wanted to be safe
so
I gave you a single rose
instead
of promising the world
a
smile
rather
than tomorrow too
a
light touch
that
could never the place
of
all I wanted to give
beyond
a single rose
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(782 D)
I
wanted too much
such
a short time
to
try it all
have
a taste
devour
more than before
to
go every direction at once
But
I did
so
excuse the way I am
because
I wanted too much
and
it all I did
too
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(791 A)
I
tried to shake away
shadow's
memories
fallen
beliefs
and
dusty mirages
of
when you were
an
oasis to me
but
trials of now
lost
in forests of good byes
took
me to this corner
this
crossroad
this
space
where
I remember everything
no
matter how much
I try
to strike away
memory
will cast me forever
in
the starring role
I
had
once
with you
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(720 D)
The
cross of reason
tossed
experience into now
dreams
so real now weren't
feelings
once felt dissipated
wishes
just another book read
(the
seven seas just another pool swam)
The
cross of reason
forever
there
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1402 B)
The
only reason
nature
has let us
get
this far
is
because it needs
someone
to water the flowers
when
the rain
doesn't
flow
like
we do
when
together
the
dawn we touch
12-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1445)
I
sang the same line
over
so many times
to
make it rhyme
You
were following a star
I
followed morning
crossed
visions left me alone
if
only I knew the tone
take
me
the
sea
I
will sail forever
fallen
forgotten endeavour
leave
me this moment free
for
all I can see
is
the remainder of me
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(614 B)
While
fading into you
I
grabbed on to
a
final portion of me
like
forever
takes
a final glimpse of
the
moment
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1975)
As
difficult as the moment appears
it
is nothing
compared
with
a
tree from a seed
a
president from a collision of sperm and egg
millions
of dollars from six numbers in the lottery
another
moment with you
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 C)
why
this is this way
mist
rises
rain
falls
winter
froze
you
touch
I
melt
this
way it is
tomorrow
too
it
will be
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(2033)
Time
came
when
window
showed
little more
than
thought cleared sky
echoes
whispered
shades
of colours
If
I knew the way
would
have smelt like
a
spring morning
when
we believed
winter
would never return
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1567)
"HOLD
THE MEMORY!"
I
yelled
this
isn't all
that
can be done
before
next moment new packages now into
'remember
when?'
and
pouring forth
more
than
better
than
I
watch the moment explode
shooting
forth
galactic
droplets
of
new moments
each
carrying
more
than
better
than
within
its form
12-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(282)
Focusing
on you
blurred
the surroundings
Your
life
nature's
victory
Your
senses
future's
promise
heightened
awareness
centred
on you
erased
everything else
the
game in front slipped away
yesterday's
storm blew out to sea
questions
became irrelevant
answers
dissolved
while
focusing on you
everything
became blurred
except
for you
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(217 B)
Still
trying to say
what
should be so easy
to
explain
how
forests
laugh
in rain
like
I do in you
how
the universe
took
15 billion years
to
bring forth
mobile
phones
and
only 30 years
you
how
your touch
makes
me
feel
like
a
christmas tree
waiting
to be
decorated
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1352 D)
I
reached through time
to
grab the bits
I
wanted tomorrow to be made of
like
any creator would
12-4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(602 B)
I
planted an acorn seed
and
heard celery grow
in
its place
I
put my yacht out to sea
but
woke in the bath tub
with
a toy boat instead
the
weather report said
the
sun would shine
over
my tropical island NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
but
i had to shovel through
four
feet of snow
to
get to my papaya plantation
You
said you would stay with me forever
and
we haven't met yet
I
swam
when
I should have flown
cried
instead of laughed
chased
cars
dogs
were driving
stood
naked
in
a crowded subway
And
told secrets on Oprah's show
otherwise
everything
seems quite normal
12-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(602)
It
was funny the way
we
danced
along
the shore
in
the moonlight
you
sang of rainbows
when
no storm was in sight
I
collected shells
in
the night
looking
for pearls
looking
for love
looking
for what I'd wake with
if
we ever stopped dancing
long
enough to dream
of
the moment
like
anyone having
a
near-love experience
would
12-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(735 D)
In
clashing colours
we
found every difference
but
a taste
of
each experience
that
was free
in
clashing colours
12-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(558 C)
Rushed
through
all
we could have
Leaping
brushed-fired passions
devoured
us
you
opened
I
gave
you
cried
I
whispered
you
held on
I
let go
filling
you with every man's desire
ACCUMULATED
EVOLUTIONARY WANT
and
in the moment
all
creation held her breath
wondering
if such fulfillment
was
possible
as
we rushed through
all
we could have
in
one final release
that
is now
forever
imprinted
on my consciousness
a
mutating cell in all future creation.
12-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1232)
I
waited for the final song
one
last curtain call
a
good bye kiss
and
a passing caress
You
were to become a star
here
on earth
or
in the sky
I
never knew which
But
I knew
as
the applause faded
and
your whispers rang in my ears
that
what I wanted
what
you gave
what
I took
was
just a borrow
an
overdue loan
from
this stage
just
a further experience
and
without saying thank you
too
many times
I
salute you
and
ask for nothing more
but
an encore
before
this stage
dissolves
into
some
future production
12-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(771 B)
If
nature
changed
her mind
as
often as I do
there'd
be blizzards in Pago Pago
spring
in the winter
the
sun would stop then go the opposite direction
cows
would give eggs on Tuesdays
flowers
on Friday
and
there'd be one of me for each day of the week
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage( 400 B)
Like
when no one notices
what
is
Is
the best performance possible
while
the rain washes away
the
stage
and
in suspended thought
birds
migrate
with
little notice
of
what is
is
the best performance
possible.
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(922)
Everyone
stood in line
waiting
to be selected
like
a best thought of the day
waits
to be realized
Friday
waits Thursday to end
a
rose waits to be given
and
I wait for you to see
I
have selected you
like
I hope you have me
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(188)
too
much junk mail
too
many sensational headlines
and
too few peaceful times
left
me looking for a comfortable seat
in
the midst of a tornado
just
to watch
not
be changed
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1617)
I
was ready
times
weren't
I
was there
space
wasn't
I
wanted you
you
didn't know
time
and space
didn't
exist
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(834)
One
step from the finish
I
realized
I
was in the wrong race
But
it was o.k.
because
I was only one step away
from
starting a new one
this
time correctly run
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1162)
I
made
a
hundred
photocopies
of
the moment
I
met you
and
hand
them out
to
myself
each
time
the
moment
tries
to
slip
away
12-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(553 B)
Here
we are
funny
to say
flowers
laugh
rain
screams
dove
for evening meal
but
though
maybe
it
is possible
funny
to say
we
never knew
that
it truly
is
this way
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(276)
I
was just getting warmed up
decades
of experience
(lay
like tumbled children's blocks)
picked
up and used again
to
make a bridge
recycled
experiences
led
me to be free once again
like
before blocks of life
began
to tumble
12-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(628)
each
moment chosen
like
ripen fruit
a
perfect gift
each
magical touch
the
taste of
new
fallen snow
and
the glow of a first touch
is
nothing but perfect
in
each moment chosen
12-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(169 B)
Surprised
by the movement
through
space
of
what I wanted
as
it pushed aside
all
resistance
and
made room in chaos
for
all
I
wanted
12-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1365 B)
Each
time I turn around
facing
direction's perspective
laughs
like time
in
the rain
does
12-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(198)
On
the back of yesterday
I
wrote what happened
How
the morning exploded
day
gave meaning
freedom
flew
and
so did I
on
the back of yesterday
I
never wished for now
to
be so far away
from
then
and
remembered so well
12-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1165 B)
Children
are not
the
souvenirs of love
but
travelling
theme
parks
they
are
12-14-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(116)
There
were so many choices
I
fell asleep
and
dreamt each one
complete
that
is why
I
see rainbows
when
others see clouds
And
so should we.
12-14-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1489)
If
every direction traveled
arrived
at the perfect destination
Discovery
forever
would
stand behind
closed
doors
laughing
at us
12-14-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(349)
A
close score
with
little time left
all
the players
waited
in evening's fading
light
as
the stars began to shine
to
make complete every game
that
no longer
needs
morning to show
winners
like
we do
each
time we touch
12-15-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(6)
I
don't like art
I
don't like writing
that
is why I drew a poem
in
the sky
just
to watch it
disappear
like
I do
each
time I read
what
I write.
12-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(330)
Like
any good audience
we
are still waiting for
the
punch line
2000
years later
12-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(908)
In
mistaken identities
trees
sprout wings
birds
grow roots
and
gravity tossed us into space
like
love
with
no way
to
keep us down to earth
12-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(565 B)
Morning
filled
night
before
breeze
returned
with
your scents
your
desire
still
fulfilling
bringing
now
with
your
return
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(976)
If
only images
were
found
to
be real
I
would become lost
in
the image of you
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(405 B)
I
thought it was the end of the world
when
the changes began.
As
if time really cared
or
the sky would disappear
or
elephants would stop dancing.
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(66 B)
With
no time left
I
asked to spend forever with you
With
no space
I
asked
if
there was room for me
In
the frozen wastelands
I
looked for a tropical taste of you.
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(2043)
I
have given you
all
the great lines
but
we have yet
to
dance
I
have shown all the possibilities
you
have yet to show any
I
have visited the stars
you
are still here
and
the point is
we
never go
beyond
our own
perspective
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(462)
While
focusing on you
I
lost sight
of
everything else
that
is why
I'm
wet
from
walking into the sea
thinking
I was walking
into
you
That
is why
I'm
bleeding
from
cutting myself in two
on
a mirror
I
was hanging
thinking
it was you
That
is how
I
became lost
thinking
I had found you
focusing
too
on
me.
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1977)
Brandy
coloured morning
revealed
last
night
never
ending
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99 D)
Something
to reach for like dawn
at
the horizon
rain
above
clouds
and
love
before
doubt
something
to reach for
never
having
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1312)
We
touched the stars
before
we were ready
NOW
without
oxygen
without
bodies
without
life
WE
search
how
to come back down-to-earth
once
again
12-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1835)
It's
o.k. to take a break
waste
some time
take
a nap
go
for a walk
fondle
the
sun is expected
to
shine
for
a few billion
more
years
and
so can we
or
at least
some
part of
us
5-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(732)
We
are always
While
pushing past the limits once believed
I
tossed away bewilderment with
'I
don't think it is possible'
touching
space and understanding it too
so
that all achievments until now
were
nothing more
than
cave paintings
just
some muddled hieroglyphics
like
old age without reason
But
that's all behind
back
in humanity's nursery book stage
Freedom
is the real frontier
with
fear of guilt and misplaced beliefs
being
the savage native
hiding
in the psychic
waiting
to attack free thinking
with
primitive weapons
of
guilt, fear, and mysticism
But
it is too late
freedom
to know will conquer
and
push the only true-value frontier open
so
every universe
without
secret
is
left bare
to
enter
and
have
4/9/93
Good Friday Poem - Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1810 C)
In
change
dreams
come awake
in
sameness
dreams
go to sleep.
4-12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(558)
Desire
is the slave
of
freedom
4-13-92
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(155 b)
if
everyone knew
what
I know now
holy
cow
I'd
be out the door
for
ever more
that's
for sure
But
I'm not
so
here I am
waiting
for more
outside
your door
4-14-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(350)
In
chosen images
beliefs
reveal
what
is real
like
this moment does
rising
over a new horizon
in
unsettled times
where
seas
pierce
clouded evenings
tranquil
message
of
what is believed,
and
in tomorrow like again NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
the
future's past
reveals
secret's timely wish's desire
held
like forever's reflection in NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
again
found to be
everything
worth waiting for
so
as to say
yes
it was as real
as
ever it was meant to be.
4-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(558)
In
ancient thought
beyond
reason's pillars
everyone
came together
to
predict the future
in
Diana's shower
But
they turned on the video
and
forgot to leave behind
much
more
than
our ancient interpretation
in
times
that
dispels
all
(554)
Sun
doesn't see
moon
doesn't rise
But
we do
each
time
we
watch
where
we're going
somewhere
beyond
destiny's
favorite thought
4-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1362)
The
past
paints
tomorrow
But
if we let go of it
tomorrow
will
have
no
added colour
to
make it complete
(and
memories only sleep)
'93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1424)
This
moment
is
so close to perfect
that
to make it so now
is
no
more
than
a simple
rearrangement
of the way it is
with
open door
as
an invitation
for
nature
to
join
in
too
'93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1498 C)
This
life
like
so many before
is
but a shadow
of
our selves
travelling
at the speed of laughter
through
the universe
on
our way
to
a fish and chip shop
the
only planet
that
sells them
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1497 B)
THE
BIG BANG
WAS
JUST
A
WHIMPER
COMPARED
TO
WHEN
WE MET
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1388)
I
awoke before time began
before
music
before
thought
before
silence erupted
into
the beginning of now
with
all the followers
still
waiting to awake
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(298)
FORGOTTEN
FREEDOMS
FOUND
FROZEN
FAVOUR
FOREVER
FREE
4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(228)
How
good we are tomorrow
depends
on how bad
we
are NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(284)
The
flower of youth
blossomed
while
I looked
the
other way
now
in memory
I
return
to
when my name
was
the one called
in
morning's sleepless desire
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1402)
Forgetfulness
of now
took
me back to when
I
remember you
whispering
to me
'never
forget this moment
and
it will last forever
somewhere
in mind' Now I am a forgotten foreigner
forevermore
full
of
forgetfulness
of
now
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(228)
For
every gate
that
opens
a
crowd cheers
I
can't see
but
I hear
as
the melody of strangers
asking
for change
like
any weekend weather person would
9-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(218 B)
The
only predictable future
we
well
ever
experience
is
when we do
what
we do
of
what we chose to do
4-19-93
(936 B)
I
couldn't
t
wait
so
I rushed toward
the
open door...
only
realizing there was no floor
on
the other side
after
my free-fall had begun
lucky
for me
I
carry a parachute everywhere
for
just such an emergency
4-12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(317 A)
In
broken images
and
meaningless dreams
the
future is drafted
and
superglued into place
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(554)
While
breaking shackles off of
who
we perceived we were to each other
we
fell in love
with
who we would have been
if
broken shackles long ago
had
shown us now - then
11-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 C)
While
waiting for a new leader
humanity
put on clean wool socks
and
though it is true
everyone
was as lost as ever
we
all had warm feet
that
didn't smell
and
with over five billion people
that
is what is important.
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1814 B)
Platonistic
specialization
almost
stopped love's integrating freedom
from
taking flight
out
of the mystic plagued night
that
descended so long ago
but
now nears its end
as
we break the 2000 year old shackles
off
of the slaves
we
have been
4-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1204)Until just a moment ago
everything
made sense
now
I
will have to
start
all over again
so
I say it was logical
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1574 B)
In
the silence of my memory
you
whispered a song
we
once danced too
under
a spring filled song
in
Golden Gate Park in 1967
And
in closed eyes
I
now disappear
into
your long ago promise
'You'll
never need anyone else but me'
But
the ticking of my clock
the
barking of the dog
my
children yelling for dinner
makes
me open my eyes
remembering
I
hadn't thought of you
for
at least 20 years
until
now.
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(649 C)
I
am moving to Saturn
where
there is more room
more
moons
it's
a heavy place
the
days are longer
and
it takes 28 years to equal one year
so
now
I
can finally get all those things done
I
always said I would
and
go multi-moon gazing
with
the ones I love
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(292)
NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
is better than yesterday
tomorrow
will be worse
than
last Friday
But
next Tuesday
will
make yesterday look sad
so
there!
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1531 B)
Childhood
spent
childhood
saved
childhood's
woven parts
superglued
together to remember
the
moment each piece was a part of something bigger
that
went broom broom click click
tick
tick like a clock
(that
measured the passing days of childhood)
Children
never grow old
they
just sprout wings and fly away
returning
now and then
to
look at how everything
once
was together
once
was a part of a movement
once
was a part of everything that really mattered
until
like
sections of life they were reassembled
in
a mosaic of memory
just
abbreviations of symbolic wholes
where
one piece represents
what
was played with for weeks at a time
in
the labyrinth of childhood
and
now is but a collage
on
one of the walls of my life.
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(106)
they've
taken away
the
walls
left
me
with
no boundaries
no
blocked views
no
hiding place
I
roll up into a ball
and
roll out into the open space
I
never knew existed
until
they took away my walls
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1465 B)
While
stretching logic
like
some do the truth
I
noticed an empty explanation
in
the corner of a theory that could have unified it all
so
now I am proud to present
the
X factor that will unify all of existence
that
holds it all together
that
was there at the Big Bang
and
will be there at the Big Crunch
and
the little nibbles afterwards
and
wait for it
it
is laughter
that
holds it all together
Because
it is true (I was there)
the
beginning of this present universe
started
with a sneeze in the middle of a laugh
and
all the galaxies
are
just droplets from that sneeze
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1811 B)
the
meaning of aloha
(hello
- goodbye)
changed
when you never returned
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1410)
It
is better
to
seek agreement with ourselves
than
solicit it from someone else
don't
you agree?
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(682)
I
liked last month so much
I
didn't change the calendar
and
that made me so happy
I
decided to change it back
all
the way to when we met
twenty
years ago
when
I was only a day younger
than
I am now
according
to my calendar
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(496)
I
talk fast
because
I have so much to say
while
others listen slowly
so
they don't have to hear it all
but
that's o.k.
Because
the words in between
seldom
have much meaning
anyway
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(662 B)
...whether
is is better
to
be creative and poor
or
rich and uncreative
I
will know once I become rich
after
I find
the
most creative way to do it
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 A)
While
putting things in order
I
noticed how random
the
galaxies were tossed about
and
thought if they can do that
so
can I and that is why\
everything
looks so untidy
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1810 D)
I
wanted to believe
what
I used to
but
reality
swept
away the myths
But
I remember the stories
and
tell them to my children
who
never believed them
to
begin with
4-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(782 B)
There
are over 5 billion people on the planet
and
only one in this space
at
this time in history
with
these thoughts
and
it will never occur again
4-21-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1429 B)
I
thought it was
sounds
of waves crashing upon the shore
waking
me from sleep
But
it was just my stomach
telling
me to forget
my
diet
and
eat a snack
in
rhythm to waves upon the shore
4-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(668)
All
the strategy
of
all the people of all time
can't
stop the rising sun
or
love, death, taxes, birth
all
the philosophies, myths, beliefs
have
not changed the colour of the sky
the
size of a mountain
or
anything much of all
which
gives little meaning
to
why
ham
on rhyme
is
better than tofu on sprouts
8-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(14 B)
It
was as if
you
knew all along
and
had to wait
all
these years
for
me to realize
we
have been together
in
one form or another
since
the beginning
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(735 B)
Even
with
all
the distraction
of
these times
I
managed
to
deliver fax-free
in
person
all
my feelings for you
to
you
and
again tomorrow
too
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(178)
It
was as if yesterday
never
had ended
But
was just put on pause
for
us to experience NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
so
we could go back to it
tomorrow
again
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(734)
change
creates love
love
creates change
create
to change
change
to create
love
to change
change
to love
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(104)
So
simple to please
so
please be simple
and
let complications melt
like
I do
when
we are one
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1342)
I
wanted the last word
and
that's why I'm still here
in
the middle of time
and
I'll be around at the end
if
it too
just
to have
the
final say
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(776)
*
466 (12x12)
NEC
Just
before God
went off on holiday
I asked if things would change
There was no answer
that was when I realized
God had left earlier
than anticipated
leaving us
in change
to sort out the mess
we're in
June 7 1993 Victor Harbor copyright
Terrell Neuage868
*=465 11x11
NEC
In the fickle
realms of reality
meanings
are invented
as explanations
while in my world
where reality
is kept out by walls of gold
I am free
in the security
of illusion
and the realism of magic
cascading
through senses
that never were
to be included
in this world
but
and more ?
No! There was never meant to be anything
but this
passing dreams
we have been
seduced by
8-7-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell
Neuage580
* = 464
NEC
LIFE
IS SHORT AND STRANGE
LIKE
AN ANCIENT POEM
BUT
LIVES FOREVER
LIKE AN ANCIENT POEM
JUNE 8 93 894 Victor Harbor copyright
Terrell Neuage110 VICTORIA STREET
not
quite
but
close enough to have a name
different
but
up close it all looks the same
meanings
slip
away before dawn's early reveal
your
touch
for
a moment was almost real
tomorrow
maybe
longer
pattern
upon pattern
assembled
secrets
chant
my name
who
am I?
but
just another not a name
lingering
on the tip
of
too many swallowed
meanings
and
by listening once again
the
whispering shadow
reveals
your
touch made me real
7/28/93
110 Victoria Street (1134)
THE
WHISPERING MIST
REVEALED
YOUR
TOUCH MADE ME REAL
SO
NO LONGER
A
SHADOW TOO
I'D
BE
7/28/93
100 Victoria Street (1486)
in
Sarajevo, Belfast, Beirut, Victor Harbor, Los Angeles,
trees
grow flowers bloom rain falls
doing
what they've been governed to do always
like
humans
fulfilling
genetic destiny
to
war, dispute, desire but never learn
and
over looking nature
who
will be and always has been unlike humans
who
were created
for
nature's amusement
and
who will stay
until
something better
can
be created
(this
time with some proper genes)
a
few dawns
down
the road
a
few yawns
left
in the mold
a
few pawns
of
nature's soul
then
wooosh
only
nature
left
humans
left
7/29/93
(614(
STARS
SO FAR AWAY
take
no notice of our daily
wants
wishes
dreams
desires
loves
losses
games
growths
problems
possessions
beliefs
bingo
troubles
thoughts
adventures
appreciations
families
fortunes
But
live their cycles
no
matter what we do
like
love
so
far away
yet
always
within
sight
7/29/93
110 Victoria Street (1352)
Why
only in my waking dream
before
dawn's shadow stealing smile
do
I find us
so
wrapped together
like
once we knew
but
too soon forgot?
You
not on the earth
me so
imprisoned in this form
dreams
link us when I am not quite here
And
you so surely elsewhere
is
memory playing with mirrors deep in my brain
this
perfect hologram of you
reflecting
our love forever
though
where forever we will be one
I
do not know
But
you are there constantly
(except
when I open my eyes
which
I do less all the time in fear of losing you forever
before
I find the way to you)
Handing
out your smile
asking
me to follow but I can't
the
dawn came you left NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today alone
once
again I am blind with my eyes open
7/29/93
110 Victoria Street (1818)
the
proof I have
that
much I had
to
prove
is
simple
I'm
a man
born
of hand-me-down-genes
explorers,
conquerors, kings, lovers, saints, jesters
it's
in the genes
fighter
pilot, basketballer, rocker, movie star
it's
in the dreams
NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today's
dreams tomorrow's genes
the
only proof
a
man will ever need
7/29/93 110 Victoria Street (1424)
just
as I wrote
in
New Orleans, Paris
Honolulu,
Fiji, Berlin
Sydney,
Auckland, London Bangkok
And
the places in between
I
will write someday
in
a space colony
flying
past Mars
or
on a moon of Jupiter
just
as my ancestors
from
caveman, to Plato, Jesus, King Arthur, handfuls of Kennedys
Don
Juan-Don Quixote-Don Terrell
and
the ones in between
I
will write on and on and on
just
as all men before me
'how
doth I get me a woman tonight'
TECHNOLOGY
CHANGES
MAN'S
MIND NEVER WILL
7/29/93
110 Victoria Street (868)
winter
on parade
frozen
waitings
wanting
wonderful
though weird
we
were
writing
upon frozen consciousness
like
human beliefs
frozen
in place
for
thousands of years
needing
a
good nuclear winter
to
start the cycle
over
once
again
7/30/93 110 victoria street (1816)
I
had you in my dream
we
made morning come
I
had you in my dream
you
gave birth to our shadow
I
had you in my dream
safe-sex
again this morning
7/29/93 110 Victoria Street (456)
POSSESSION
while
in a dream
silent
mist's shadows
its
illusive impulses
becoming
incoming coming
wrapped
by your desire
projected
in astral illusions
I
opened up you entered
took
my body for a spin
around
la Grand Palais
through
la Arc de Triomphe
(where
'we' had a few in a nearby shadow)
then
the disco
on
Boulevard la Villette
where
'we' charged a night of pleasure
on
my wife's credit cards
now
awake me in my own body
back
at the hotel
I
try to explain to my wife
that
it was not me on the all night carousel
as
love's scents ooze out of my body
and
my hoarse gin breath vainly whispers
but
but but
it
wasn't me I was asleep
while
my body was being used
as
all men's are in the final analysis
7/30
110 Victoria Street (1810)
The
last time
I
saw my love
was
where she stood swaying in scented smile
selling
her body
to
passing relatives and friends
on
her fund raising drive
to
buy Bibles for the Russians
and
provide low cost love
for
the poor
july
31/93 110 Victoria Street
if
all my heroes knew me
would
they still believe
they
were just
a
mistake of nature
too?
7/31/93
110 Victoria street (342)
Too
often
while
meaning something else
the
rain fell
the
farmer cheered
sport
fans jeered
Too
often
while
meaning something else
the
waves swelled
fishermen
ran ashore
surfers
grabbed their boards
Too
often
while
meaning something else
I
ask for love
but
never for long
7/31/93
110 Victoria Street (1552)
The
last time
I
saw my love
was
where she stood smiling
selling
her body
to
passing relatives and friends
on
her fund raising drive
to
buy Bibles for the Russians
and
provide low cost love
for
the poor
7-31-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell NeuageSA (1408)
While
being slaves of love
men
will never be free
to
be possessed by nature
naturally
8/01
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 A)
men
are born free
(according
to the constitution)
but
all women cost
(according
to reality)
8-10-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(970)
contact
made
like
being one
past
minutes
equalled
rolling
forever
automatically
like
thoughts once so sure
to
find the reason
for
this
is
too
and
little
more
8-10-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(130)
While
writing worthless rhymes
I
fell off of a verbal
burble
and
never found
my
way back
8-01-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1815 B)
I
met a man
whose
stories came true
as
soon as they were heard
I
met a woman
whose
songs came true
as
soon as they were heard
I
met a child
whose
wishes came true
as
soon as they were heard
But
I've never met
anyone
who
knew
how
this
ends
August
11 93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(538)
Driven
passion
leaps
hurdles
forward
thrusting
life
changes
in
blinks
faster
than Pluto's stolen shadows
past
burn fast
the
new me
you
see
is
to be free
without
thought
of
patience
for
the role
I
once played
10-02-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(158)
While
wishfully waiting
we
watched where we were
sneak
us into
last
night's remembered touch
and
while loosing control
lost
in your breath
we
disappeared
never
to be seen again
11-03-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1815 A)
Like
a new page of life
turned
too many times
morning's
misting memories
made
me
remember
you
when
we galloped forests
to
our allegoric lake
We
rolled in laughing love
and
captured fleeing passions
that
never wanted flight
to
begin with
Like
now
in
too many turned pages\
to
remember
when
first
we
started over
this
our allegoric night
11-04-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(906)
Asking
answers' allegiance
while
not
leaves
outdoors there
11-05-93
V ictor Harbor (56)
SHOCKED!
Perception's
reflected illusion
reversed
reality
I
couldn't see
But
only beg
I
couldn't feel
beliefs
were all wrong
morning
was night
flowers
turned to seed
touch
turned to stone
that
made no words
I
slept while awake
But
IT was all a dream
this
isn't
no
longer
Shocked!
11-05-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1260)
forgotten
foreign feelings
forged
freedoms
final
fate
no
longer here
11-6-93
(218 b)
without
all the differences
there
would
be
no
picture
11-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1819 b)
In
dawn's early revival
I
cheered
to
know
this
show
I
was part of
once
again
11-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(559b)
While
at centre stage
I
changed my script
so
this performance
you
see
is
but a change
I'm
going through
11-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 a)
I
won
I
lost
I
was
I
am
11-06-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(856)
Changes
came quickly before summer's settled passions
oaths
were whispered as spring sown seeds settled passions
the
times surely so seemingly sullen
would
be remembered when now
would
be read as ancient history
inventions
failing prospering believers
found
anything to hold onto gelatinous as first love
But
there is the future no one knows everyone predicts
Though
no one is quite correct
Touch
my mind in pulled forth desires
dig
deep death's dwindling demand
take
changes
reshape
nature's woken woven womb
whisper
to the deaf
wave
to the blind
walk
with the lame
wake
the dead
wonder
what was where when no one was there
Fleeing
freedom fondles the enslaved
shackles
clasp the different
But
for all the troubles
all
the worries
all
the struggles
That
this all important tragedy firmly hangs onto
Nothing
can be greater that to know some day
This
moment will be viewed as but a hiccup in nature
when
changes came quickly
and
oaths were whispered only to never be harvested
The
future came too fast to think of now as anything more
than
a passing shadow eclipsed
11-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(104)
Your
touch
the
change
global
warming
here
to stay
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1900 - D)
initial
surrender
lost
time
borrowed
destiny
controlled
laughter
on
we could go
choice
so rare
or
here stay
dwell;
on
the
whence
of
it all
11-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(572)
I
thought we could share the moment
as
if it were
the
last, the first, even forever
we'd
be unleashed nature
watching
humanity begging for rest
we
would be the condemned's
final
wish
the
cry at birth
the
anguish at the end
the
fireworks at the completion
of
the games
the
ecstasy of every experience
pulsating
in one Grand Moment
I
would be your knight, love, knight, love, king, slave,
fool,
hero...
even
a new-age male
if
such a perversion
was
your wish
Oh!
I'm sorry
you
just were asking me what time it was
here,
in front of the caulaflowers and parsley
at
the supermarket
11-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(680)
Caught
in between changes
without
names
theories
without masks
desires
without dreams
caught
in between voids
where
changes create
voids
creating
change
10-8-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(102)
Forgotten
once
again
like
watching life pass too quickly
without
holding onto
passing
reality
nothing
comes to be forgotten
and
a man in the last row
waves
his hands and yells
"forgotten
I'm
forgotten"
But
no one hears him
as
the crowds huddle together
trying
to remember
what
they had forgotten
11-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(218 b)
I
tossed away meaning
like
I do apple cores
But
it's o.k.
the
seeds will grow
and
produce meaning
like
I once did
before
tossed away moments
were
used for the landfill programme
at
the edge of the swamp
to
build skyscraping apartments
for
people to sit in
wondering
why there were so many memories
tossed
about.
11-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(692)
So
much the end here:
less
likely futures' glimpse
echoes
momentary freedom;
and
here brought forth meaning
holds
wind chimes'
rhyme
nature's
time
the
end falls
from
sight
the
past strips naked
and
sun bathes alongside memory's reflected copulation
HEAR
so
much the end.
11-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1332)
When
the patterns changed
so
much the end looked clear
everything
was answered
time
lost prescription space discovered dimension
all
figured out the way it should be
why
it never is I don't recall
each
time a different ending
still
the same
always
far from the way it should be
if,
all-figured-out
was
true.
11-14-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1782)
While
building on what went before
I
saw tomorrow
glance
around the corner
and
thank me
for
the foundations
for
future's experience.
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809)
Too
late the thaw
when
winter's open door
lays
waste
hasty
autumn's retreat
and
ice slices
fields
of harvest forgotten
too
late too late
like
life known
and
frozen in winter's
crystal
memory
waiting
for spring
like
every lover does
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1540)
While
laughing at the changes
even
making believe they weren't real
this
moment took flight
with
me in tow
And
I have no intention of every returning
to
say
these
changes now
are
anything more
than
forever lost in flight.
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1810 A)
Each
variation
is
but an interpretation
of
choice.
11-17-932
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(170)
While
floating upon
thoughts
of you
the
world slipped away
leaving
me to wonder
where'd
I'd be
if
I wasn't floating upon thoughts of you
11-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage((1809 C)
What
we shared
even
tomorrow will remember
flying
free forever foreign feelings
while
watching where we merge
as
always we expected
we
would
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1744)
Without
appearing
repetitious
all
I want to know is
have
I presented before
what
now
so
often it seems I search
the
touch
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1826)
WELL!
The
point never was anything
anymore
than not appearing
in
changing beliefs:
Like
a stunt actor
filling
in
while
this moment goes on
and
I stay behind
11-16-93
(1684)
More
like new morning
each
thought of you becomes
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(974)
Surprised
the
prize rises
but
no one held their breath
the
wind blew instead
in
its tortured
swallowed
way
surprise
surprise
silently
the moment explodes
ripping
satin covered dreams
and
ravaged virgin thoughts
Take;
me
Give
me
There
is no exchange
when
new born hope drowns
where
too the end?
never
knows who to tell
11-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1366)
Changes
like
dreams
are
programmes
synchronizing
who
we'd be
if
all we could be
was
let free.
11-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(104)
Perception
is just interpretation
And
how I perceived you
when
we met so long ago
is
still the same
because
I
never listened too
the
world's interpretation
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1192)
For
everything that became
in
the way we thought it would
good
on ya
and
how'd it happen
so
as to do it all again
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4-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(218 B)
If
I hadn't eaten tomorrow
there'd
be something
for
the rest of you all
to
look forward to
but
since there isn't
I'll
take your praise NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
and
remember you well
tomorrow
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(374)
creativity
is a natural
mutation
of nature
free-will
is its mutinous crew
and
we
the
passing strangers to this life,
the
disillusioned captains
looking
for a better course
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(136)
love
is a bird
blown-away
on
the first day of hunting season
4-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(948)
love
is an experiment
that
nature evolves with while
philosophy,
religion, psychology
politics
and the economy
are
the stumbling blocks
after
the hurdles
on
the way
to
love's tasteful experiment
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(956)
I
take all the concepts
put
forth in a philosopher's
life
and
sum it up in a few lines
and
feel good for all the trees saved
instead
of explaining in volumes of books
'ain't
she nice?
and
that's why we're here folks...'
4-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(872 B)
The
new empirical theory of blind love
is
you and me
out-of-sight
out-of-mind
together
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1410)
While
searching through
memories
on file
I
accessed the spring dawn
when
we rose out of our selves
in
tune to the sound of our breath
that
echoes now
through
a deep memory of long ago
and
where are you now
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1811 B)
In
forests of forgotten flavours forever forgives foreign freedom for fighting
frozen memories
tonight
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(562)
The
most creative moment of the day
is
a moment before we awake
when
the waking hours are designed
then
hidden behind the screen of back-on-earth again
like
when we were born
and
to change that moment
would
be to change
creation
itself
which
my dog told me
just
before I awoke
this
morning
that
is not our lot to do
probably
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1410)
unlike
other poets
who
try to sound all flowery, rhyming, mystical, and abstract
I
prefer to write down-to-earth-truck-driver's-poetry
like
'hey,
where ya goin' baby?
how
about some real lovin' tonight'
and
no poet has ever said it
quite
as beautiful as that.
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1573)
We
began where we left off
only
the century had changed
Now
there are flying things
with
people in them
and
mechanical monsters
carrying
the people
doing
the work
yeap
it was different
but
we are the same
I
suppose
everyone
really
is
at
night with the lights out
it
could be 400 BC still
and
you would taste just as good
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1630)
I
went to count my money
like
I once did my women
OH
NO!
broke
again
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(850 D)
full
of worry
that
missing you
would
blind me
from
starting over
with
someone else
who
someday I'd miss too
like
I once did
and
now worry
will
never stop
you
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(234)
I
showed everything I felt
lucky
for me
the
President said
it
was just another
nuclear
accident
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(649 G)
I
waited to see if anything
would
ever become of me
before
accepting my fate
to
be kind of all the local galaxies
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(772)
In
my humble opinion
God
should be
fired
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(566)
If
we had stopped saying
this
is too difficult
in
1777
let's
go home for tea
we
wouldn't be
watching
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on
the 6 o'clock news
4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(418 B)
I
was so sleepy
I
slept standing up
while
the world
lay
on its side
watching
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(8
Like
a cloud-free
wind
strewn sea
I
reached to be free
But
a dawn hugged horizon
showed
me
BOUND
and ALONE
to
WISHES and DREAMS
that
filtered through
passing
times
when
voices believed
merged
with my final thought
sinking
this
wind stream sea
with
me
gasping
for a new philosophy
that
made sense
to
my drowning world.
6-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(898)
waiting
for love
is like
waiting for a computer to load
with
so much memory
and
functions
that
no end is ever to be
unless
it becomes unplugged
and
has no back up batteries.
6-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1062)
So
cold
sun
so far away
night
so close
of
ever I'm warm again
I'll
save it
at
least
in
memory
so
that when I'm so cold anew
my
memory will thaw
my
frozen perceptions
that
chill me so now
6-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1302)
if
love
has
to
be
explained
it
then is a philosophy
6-3-9
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(40)3
everything
we do
is
just a preliminary
for
when
there
is nothing
left
to do
6-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(196)
I
don't know why
can't
explain it now
perhaps
never will
but
life never ends
only
perceptions
of
the moment end
like
this verse
one
line at a time
7-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(327 B)
Not
enough time?
where'd
it go ?
Not
enough space?
who
filled it up?
not
enough love?
why'd
they take more than their share?
painted
greatness?
we
ate the colours
trying
to fill time
erase
space
wash
away loneliness
And
that is why
I
am here
you
are not
7-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1130 B)
packaged
feelings
on
tour
your
love
my
souvenir
come
again
like
your smile
foreign
visa
desire's
passport
This
is not the real me
I
am just like this
because
I'm on holiday
your
touch
my
souvenir
of
packaged feelings
placed
away
for
a rainy day
when
I'm without you.
6-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1182)
spent
the day
sitting
in a warm bubble bath
watching
life's truths
ricochet
off bubbles
unlike
my children
Though
I was being lazy
not
making their meals
sewing
clothes
cleaning
house
But
I worked very hard to find truths
here
in the bubble bath
and
the truth is
it
is better in here
than
out there.
8-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1342)
poems
like
dreams
love
fantasies
and
were never meant to be
translated
interpreted
realized
8-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1210)
Without
amnesia
we
can never
know
youth's passion again
like
a flower closed
would
open again
if
it chose
to
break free
of
what it perceived
to
be its only way
to
be
9-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1825 C)
I
translated my feelings
for
you
in
so many ways
that
I forgot
which
language
you
understand
and
I'm left incoherent
like
love is
7-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(720)
it
was as if tomorrow had never had happened
and
what
we
were looking forward to
was
yesterday
before
time had yet to discover
liberality.
7-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(735 A)
The
problem with my writing
is
that it begins
before
it ends
just
like us
now
at
our beginning
7-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1424 C)
stayed
awake
when
I went to sleep
to
see
where
dreams begin
and
I discovered
the
truth
dreams
are televised broadcasts
from
a planet of a neighboring star
and
their electronic waves
always
passing through the earth
are
on the same frequency
as
our dreams
so
it's obvious that what we dream
is
just so many soap opera
from
a distant star
7-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1352 C)
Sitting
side-saddled
on
a shadow
should
show
shades
of substance
finally
found
so
fulfilled
But
as times travel
so
do shadows
never
showing
which
side
is
best
like
love
and
the morning after
and
shadows of fences
yet
to hurdle
6-10-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1278)
I
thought you were
someone
else
than
you are
You
thought I was someone different
than
I really am
so
our someone else
got
together and had a real good life
while
the real you and me
have
had a terrible time
being
together
wondering
why we weren't
someone
else
together
6-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(680 B)
The
good poets
write
about
Zeus,
buffaloes, dew, trees, morning
But
since no real man
is
really a poet
I
write only about
nails,
hammers, chopping trees,
footy,
beer, and trucks
Because
no one
wants
sensitive
when
they can be a man
6-10-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1402 C)
While
waiting for fame
I
lived and died
and
left behind
nothing
at all
Because
I found fame
on
a distant galaxy
that
will last a lot longer
than
this short lived galaxy
our
short lived sun
spends
its short life
shinning
on
a
short lived planet.
6-10-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1815 A)
Behind
the mountains
Beyond
the sea
in
the depths we believed
Bright
birth borrowed
tomorrow
thinking
forever was a circle
now
that we know better
we
can rest easy
and
live now
like
we are
in
the midst of forever
6-12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(78)
The
evolution of belief
brings
little relief
when
the beginning
is
unknowable
until
now
But
for $4.95 plus $5.50 postage and handling
all
the answers
will
be questioned
and
if you act now
a
free match will be given
for
evolution of belief
to
return
to
the ashes it first rose from
6-12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1402 A)
while
empty of thought
I
caught
a
meaningless pattern
shapeless
as love
when
first met
I
placed it in a motionless container
while
rain outside suspiciously fell
and
wrote in a cloud above it
'Beware
- meaningless pattern near'
but
the rain erased my sign
and
flooded my empty thoughts
So
if I pretend to understand
and
smile awhile
remember
so
I won't have to next line
6-12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage((1809 F)
To
say what everyone wants to hear
like
the great Australia statement
is
the only reason
all
else
will
be fillers
until
that time
6-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1552 B)
As
complex
the
future may be:
life
will be simple
needs
met
wishes
answered
dreams
controlled
with
instant answers
perfect
solutions
yet
still no cure
for
love
will
exist
which
is little
different
than
in the
beginning
6-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 B)
Sun
rises
rain
falls
river
flow
mountain
sit
while
the rest of us
run
around in circles
sorting
our selves out.
If
we know something nature doesn't
should
we say
'hey,
we're humans
we
got it all figured out'
or
should we let nature
continue
along
without
our help
6-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1362 C)
Love
like a sun rise
happens
every day
but
only if we're awake
do
we experience it
6-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(956 C)
While
swimming
to
the end of this dream
I
encountered reality
floating
on top
in
a bubble
but
like all reality
it
popped
on
closer inspection
6-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1811 E)
Without
words
without
birds
we
wouldn't know
a
sentence in flight
And
I would be unable
to
say Mars is covered
with
tomato soup
the
moon was of green cheese
Venus
- lettuce
and
Pluto is made from tofu
(or)
in general
we
live in an edible section
of
the milky way
but
whether we are dessert
or
the main course
I
can not really say
6-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1819 H)
EMPTY
that
is the only explanation
FULL
is
the goal
LOST
is
the way
pieces
lay alongside the road
huddled
together in hysteria
the
state of the condition
is
frozen within its code
laughter
screams in baroque sonnets
it
will be o.k.
it
will be o.k.
the
earth will shatter at mid-day
splintered
with all its wisdom
art,
poetry and good sex
into
so many empty pieces
by
some love lost comet
and
no one will know
that
once we cared
6-15-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(176)
Final
moments exit
in
rhythm to echoes
of
a pulsar
at
the end of our small universe
but
no one knows why
we're
so off-key
and
nature isn't
6-15-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(212)
to
understand
is
to not to believe
6-15-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1560)
while
getting in touch with my feelings
I
tripped over reason
fell
in love
and
broke my heart
now
in hospital
I
was given plastic surgery
and
though I now look like
a
shadow of myself
at
least I'm in touch
with
myself
6-15-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 I)
For
the first time
with
no reason in sight
we
were free
to
be ourself
6-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(218 E)
while
waiting for the right moment
nothing
happened
and
that was the right
moment
6-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1815 A)
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passed with little importance
and
so was added
to
a pile of yesterdays
and
sent to
a
far corner of the universe
to
be recycled
as
important days
for
the inhabitants
of
a distant planet
who
live forever
on
our discarded memories
6-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1531 C)
As
far as dreams can go
we will
find
the
end
to
where
what
will
we
want
with
what
we want
where
we were
when
we were
who?
6-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 B)
Countless
times I stayed awake
to
worry about
what
would happen
only
to find
everything
changed
so
much
I
couldn't keep up
with
worrying
so
now
like
the endless line
of
pine trees on the edge of town
wondering
whether
they
will become tooth picks
firewood
a
book of poems
or
a Christmas tree
I
wonder
too.
6-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1166)
I
wrote yesterday
for
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forgetting
it is me
and
not time
that
doesn't change
but
stays the same
at
least in thought
6-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(860)
I
took all the mistakes
ever
I made
and
lined them up
they
reached to the moon
and
now I will walk on them
and
bring back some
green
cheese and market it
Before
anyone else
gets
the chance
6-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(686)
It
has always been
how
to start
that
has puzzled
and
baffled
everyone
so long
But
not me
because
I never start
6-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(663 B)
Passions
flame
quickly
came
like
youthful desire
burns
in the fire
turns
to ash
then
to dash
off
into age
another
page
is
turned
past
burned
and
the future is remembered
before
it is experienced
while
where we had been
is
left like so many ruffled leaves
7-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1186 B)
The
fools have died again
traded
their life
for
a belief
fought
wars to protect dreams
crucified
themselves for faith
sacrificed
their lives
thought
we all cared
those
left behind
playing
at the casinos
dancing
at the discos
tasting
love along the shore
they
don't care
what
the dead believe
while
they lay bleeding
with
some noble delusion\
floating
in their head
we
the living are the heroes
because
we knew enough
not
to fight the losing battle
that
death always is
7-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1402)
Death
loves nature
in
cycles of birth
nourishing
eternal sleep
society
endures suffering
and
calls it purpose
the
reason to continue
for
lessons to learn
then
quickly forgotten
when
death loving nature
takes
one's final breath
so
to suffer si so wrong
to
love one forever will never be
right
morals and happy thoughts die too
when
death loving nature
takes
the final breath that had happened
for
something more
at
the end of this life
than
a grave that no one can ever free
themselves
from
neither
to walk heaven's golden streets
or
sweat hell's guilty flames
7-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(144)
What
is poem if not to question?
Written
in stops and gaps
unlike
nature flowing free
who
but man would sentences leave unfinished?
to
toss about words
like
a juggler at the matinee?
what
is poem
but
meaning gone astray?
waiting
for the best minds to pick up
the
content and bury the metre and rhymes
and
name themselves critics
while
expecting a good wage
to
tell what the poverty struck poet
really
was saying
Because
he was to daft
to
make it clear to begin with
and
too lazy
to
get a proper means of support to begin with
for
what is poem
but
an abbreviated excuse
to
begin with
7-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1738 B)
EUHEMERISM
Funeral
are for the living
the
dead will not see the roses and tulips picked
waiting
to wilt and die
on
a casket made for the living
What
a waste the dead are
filling
cemeteries
where
skyscrapers of offices and frenzied secretaries
or
a freeway or a new bowling alley
could
be put in place instead
Shame
on the dead
leaving
bodies to pollute the world and take up valuable space
the
dead are gone
leave
'em be
why?
when
I die I wouldn't be her any longer
take
my body
the
good parts give 'em to someone alive
and
the rest feed to the lions
at
Central Park Zoo
for
once long ago
I
was a Christian and the lions still remember
when
I am dead and all this is left
is
my crying children and scribbled poems
do
not wrap my death and fill the ground
to
shelter my bones
because
funerals are for the living
the
dead are too far away and sound asleep
to
ever care
7-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(234 B)
The
life she made
the
life she lived
thoughts
no one else dared to possess
love
to desire's full extent
children
born children raised
hopes
and dreams
some
even fulfilled
years
and years
life's
toil
it
was all headed somewhere
until
a robber stabbed her
she
dies on the subway platform amidst rush hour traffic
people
rush by
stepping
over a life no more
to
get home
in
time for dinner and evening t.v.
not
wishing th think
tomorrow
it could be them
stabbed
to death for a few dollars
the
sum value of one's life
to
a passing stranger
a
few dollars
the
price of a cheap bottle of wine
drunk
in haste over a life once so full
7-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1408)
We
slipped away
between
the rain and bridge
and
memories of before
along
mirrored streets
in
pregnant whispers
we
wanted to hide behind NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
and
jump out and surprise a future
the
wind was strong
I
felt your heart beat inside my breast
if
only we could be longer than this passing storm
I
would lie with you in the rain
until
memories died of exhaustion
then
we'd float away
like
we've done every time before
7-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1702)
We
played in words
juggled
meanings
contested
emotions
And
still I wanted you to know
I
wanted you so
But
there were no oscars or trophies
for
unknown acts
feelings
came feelings left
But
I never could keep straight
which
one was the right one
Now
you're gone
Now
I'm not
Now
the
words play off of my performance
just
like once they did when meaning made sense
and
the game was to be played not to be lost
but
to be shared before too late
changed
all to this past
that
will always be
just
apart of a part
and
never again
an
all
like
us
again
now
7-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1694)
We
camped in childhood
well
away from who we'd be
when
the world
would
want more than
what
we were
when
wooded wishes
were
so real
7-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1636)
In
love
the
game
is
to be played
not
to be lost
7-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(564)
When
at last
we
take our mask off
is
it not strange
that
at that moment
our
life ends
7-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1746)
HOW
LONG THE BATH?
When
first hot and bubble filled
like
before birth
if
I could imagine such
when
news is someone else's life
war,
discovery, money, sex, hunger
the
precise media
shocking
a concise audience once again
"oh
the way things are
what
will become of it all?"
take
me back to the slavery of the womb
or
at least this hot bubble bath
where
I lay in evolution's start
was
it not out of a warm bubble bath
that
life first emerged?
I
understand
we
are sorry Sarajevo, Belfast, Lebanon, LA,
City
Streets everywhere
The
South will rise again
out
of a warm bubble bath
But
for now like in the beginning
and
to be at the end
I
wash my genes
I
soak my soul
I
merge quickly before the water turns cold
and
the bubbles disappear
like
death does
when
life reappears
7-17-93
7-17-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1748)
Your
guess
is
as good as mine
and
every human ever to guess
7-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1886)
My
reality is another's nightmare
my
dreams
someone
else's reality
7-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(998)
I
came to this world in my body
and
I will leave without it
the
meaning of which
if
only I knew
I'd
be the wises of all people
the
starter of a religion
the
leader of every follower
the
host of my own t.v. show
just
like Jesus and all the rest were
A
superstar
a
living legend
with
the philosophy
to
match
7-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(311 E)
Plato
if you discovered death was but a change
and
came back to earth with no memory of pasts
would
you believe again what once you lied
or
would you be a common hooker
standing
at the corner of Hollywood and Vine
like
all the other greats throughout history
have
done at one time or another
and
I've seen them all waiting for a trick
like
before Emerson, Arthur, Jesus, Aristotle, Einstein,
Jung,
Mary, Joan of Arc, the saints
philosophers.
poets and artists
T
they all taken their turns
selling
themselves for a few coins
not
knowing once they had known the way
to
get so many to believe
when
nature used them
like
the world does no
so
well
7-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1203 B)
with
a day gone by
to
have nothing to remember it by
is
to have it go by without ever having been
but
to cast a poem
plot
a painting
network
a joke worldwide
on
a bulletin-board
is
to access interactively nature's
transparent
lines
is
to bond in memory
forever
that
there was more
to
the day
than
the passing wind
7-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1819 C)
everything
was put aside
giving
a clean slate
like
birth
new
impressions were everywhere
old
interpretations
like
in a philosophical amnesic
surprised
even
reason made sense
though
feelings still didn't
and
everything is now so new
and
exploratively different
that
(and
it sounds so radical)
I
can
(justifiably)
write
(without
shock)
the
END
and
know it is only the beginning.
7-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(194)
I
dreamt
of
a moment like this
now
if
only
I
could recall
what
happened
it
would be so sensible
7-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(335 B)
everything
every
moment
every
thought
is
to be grand
the
ultimate
what
everything
was
done for
while
all before
was
little more
than
the step to now
like
winter to spring is
7-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(192)
While
exploring every thought ever had
I
was amazed to discover
they
were all edible
and
luckily
calorie
free
like
rain
which
has reflected
the
world as it travelled
to
earth
so
far
7-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 F)
As
we dreamt
in
anticipation
of
what waking would be
life
separated
leaving
us
in
dream
for
evermore
7-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(62 B)
Close
to the end
meanings
so poignant
that
the thought will last a thousand years if not more
If
God came to earth 2000 years ago
wow!
why
didn't he make a video of it?
why
go through the dark ages
(the
years before television)
without
seeing the way it was
why
didn't the crusaders
have
land Rovers and laser weapons?
Why
didn't Jesus use a microwave oven?
to
warm the food for the 500,000 at Woodstock?
Why
didn't Caesar become a game-show host?
Why
walk on water when one can use a hover craft and skim the top?
who
changed the water to wine to blood
at
Sarajevo, Belfast, La and in the Townships?
Why
didn't the twelve disciples
form
a baseball team instead of just getting stoned?
Why
didn't the Church build football stadiums instead of churches?
Why
would one leave the job of making billions of suns - many with
earth
like planets - and come to our earth?
Well
it is all so obvious
God
did leave videos
and
when they are discovered (beneath my house)
I
can say
'see
I told you so'
7-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(118)
When
what was expected
drowned
in the rain
covered
by an avalanche
blown
away be reality
believe
in the immense energy
involved
to
make so much expected
be
but a fart in time
7-28-93
(1800)
I've
worked so hard
to
become everything
I
never wanted to be
that
if
what
I wanted
happened
ever
no
longer would I know
would
you?
7-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(766)
as
if endings really were:
Like
stepping out of circles
abandoning
cycles
spirals
lateralness
can only operate in a circle
(giving
it the new age illusions we love to share)
leaves
no end
beginnings
don't struggle
only
aborted consciousness does
leaving
returning
defining
refining
mouths
opened wide
everything
ever said is wrong
everything
ever written false
every
love has been scared
the
end now is nothing more
but
a return on the circle
to
doing it all wrong once again
7-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 B)
Morning
swallowed
my
dreams
made
me hungry
to
see if
they'd
come true
like
everything else
I
believe in
does
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(978)
At
the beginning
when
all there was
was
already there
waiting
to be put together
like
you and me
and
the galaxies
too
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(64)
I
was so sleepy
I
slept standing up
while
the world
lay
on its side
watching
5-1-93
(838)
the
reason
we
are here
is
because dawn
doesn't
want to
come
alone
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1430)
like
steps through history
or
a wander through dreams
NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today's
beliefs,efs
grew
out of yesterday's crumbled ideologies
for
tomorrow's
individual
freedom
finally
won
to
take wings
never
to land again
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(916)
I
learned shorthand
speed
reading
computerization
experienced
Paris in a day
read
'Readers Digest'
condensed
pasteurized homogenized great novels
and
watched history of civilization
but
time stood still
when
your touch
became
so
involved
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(492)
I
concentrated so hard
on
this moment
that
yesterday and tomorrow disappeared
now
like
neapolitan ice cream
melted
contains
the former and the latter
in
a future past tense
that
has no ease
of
explanation
in
this moment
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(316 C)
There
is little difference
between
you and me
except
that I am conscious
of
the little difference
(even
calling them my own)
and
you see them
being
but variations
of
your greater self
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1430 D)
This
life goes so fast
that
when I die
I
will need
a
thousand years
to
review all that happened
in
this life
5-1-93
(1508)
The
continuous pouring out
of
creativity
fueled
forever's freedom's
perceptual
persuasion's performance
reflected
perfectly
for
me
to
know
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1394)
I
wouldn't want to live on Venus
because
there are no trees
nor
on Mars with its lack of flowers
and
there is no chocolate on Jupiter
or
ice cream on Mercury
while
on earth
everything
I want
is
between the sea
the
trees
and
the shopping mall.
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(858)
If
I knew how to write
a
poem
I
would
if
I knew how to sing
I
would
If
I could dance, take photos
paint
or tell your future
I
would
But
all I can do
is
build you a castle
in
the sand
and
offer it to you
before
the sea
take
it from me
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(376)
the
reason
we
don't have wings
is
because we don't have to fly north
for
the winter
But
can stay all winter-warm
wrapped
in each other's
warmth
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(946)
The
reason
we
keep coming to earth
is
to learn to stop dying
but
we keep
getting
into the Plato trap
of
this is it
why
keep going
5-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(946 C)
Not
every time
is
everything
going
to be
the
way it is
at
other times
But
instead
like
any spinning top everything gets a chance\
to
be close at hand
again
if
we see
5-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1130 C)
We
rush through life
like
we're in a hurry
to
get to the end
not
knowing what it is
except
that
it
will be different
than
the rush through
this
life is
5-593
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1768)
I
write
for
the same reasons
a
bird flies
far
from an oil slick
a
whale stays away
from
a stream
and
buffaloes avoid mountains
I
write only
to
find these answers
that
everyone else
already
knows
5-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(858)
y
just
a thought away
from
not believing anymore
then
to disappear
without
a thought in mind
or
to live forever
if
we wish to believe
that
But
where ever it is
what
we do
forever
is created
with
what is believed
now.
4-14-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1660)
Sharing
quietly
passing
perceived thought
only
to be
received
through
foggy receptors
like
speaking
the
same words
some
other language
5-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1254)
too
many dreams?
not
enough time awake
to
make
them
come
true
5-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1568)
The
thought
we
go to sleep in
dream
in
wake
in
is
in
side
but
if it wasn't
we'd
sleep
dream
wake
in
side
the
same
thought
like
when giving birth
to
a dream
5-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1462)
Like
in any dream
giving
birth
only
changes
after
waking
5-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(914)
On
the 8th day
God
wrote a poem
on
the 9th
some
people were created
to
read it
But
they couldn't
so
every day after more folks
were
made
so
now each person on earth
represents
on year
since
the poem was written
and
that's how long ago God wrote the poem
and
since no one
as
yet has read it
we
are all still muddled up
trying
to read
something
so basic
as
a poem
5-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1166)
While
stopping for awhile
like
a passing smile
captures
a moment's trial
standing
in single file
I
noticed what was the same
was
each ending
like
life
and
every dream that follows
5-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1942)
Importance
is an attribute
slippeWhile
pushing past the limits once believed
I
tossed away bewilderment with
'I
don't think it is possible'
touching
space and understanding it too
so
that all achievments until now
were
nothing more
than
cave paintings
just
some muddled hieroglyphics
like
old age without reason
But
that's all behind
back
in humanity's nursery book stage
Freedom
is the real frontier
with
fear of guilt and misplaced beliefs
being
the savage native
hiding
in the psychic
waiting
to attack free thinking
with
primitive weapons
of
guilt, fear, and mysticism
But
it is too late
freedom
to know will conquer
and
push the only true-value frontier open
so
every universe
without
secret
is
left bare
to
enter
and
have
4/9/93
Good Friday Poem - Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1810 C)
In
change
dreams
come awake
in
sameness
dreams
go to sleep.
4-12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(558)
Desire
is the slave
of
freedom
4-13-92
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(155 b)
if
everyone knew
what
I know now
holy
cow
I'd
be out the door
for
ever more
that's
for sure
But
I'm not
so
here I am
waiting
for more
outside
your door
4-14-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(350)
In
chosen images
beliefs
reveal
what
is real
like
this moment does
rising
over a new horizon
in
unsettled times
where
seas
pierce
clouded evenings
tranquil
message
of
what is believed,
and
in tomorrow like again NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
the
future's past
reveals
secret's timely wish's desire
held
like forever's reflection in NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
again
found to be
everything
worth waiting for
so
as to say
yes
it was as real
as
ever it was meant to be.
4-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(558)
In
ancient thought
beyond
reason's pillars
everyone
came together
to
predict the future
in
Diana's shower
But
they turned on the video
and
forgot to leave behind
much
more
than
our ancient interpretation
in
times
that
dispels
all
(554)
Sun
doesn't see
moon
doesn't rise
But
we do
each
time
we
watch
where
we're going
somewhere
beyond
destiny's
favorite thought
4-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1362)
The
past
paints
tomorrow
But
if we let go of it
tomorrow
will
have
no
added colour
to
make it complete
(and
memories only sleep)
'93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1424)
This
moment
is
so close to perfect
that
to make it so now
is
no
more
than
a simple
rearrangement
of the way it is
with
open door
as
an invitation
for
nature
to
join
in
too
'93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1498 C)
This
life
like
so many before
is
but a shadow
of
our selves
travelling
at the speed of laughter
through
the universe
on
our way
to
a fish and chip shop
the
only planet
that
sells them
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1497 B)
THE
BIG BANG
WAS
JUST
A
WHIMPER
COMPARED
TO
WHEN
WE MET
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1388)
I
awoke before time began
before
music
before
thought
before
silence erupted
into
the beginning of now
with
all the followers
still
waiting to awake
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(298)
FORGOTTEN
FREEDOMS
FOUND
FROZEN
FAVOUR
FOREVER
FREE
4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(228)
How
good we are tomorrow
depends
on how bad
we
are NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(284)
The
flower of youth
blossomed
while
I looked
the
other way
now
in memory
I
return
to
when my name
was
the one called
in
morning's sleepless desire
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1402)
Forgetfulness
of now
took
me back to when
I
remember you
whispering
to me
'never
forget this moment
and
it will last forever
somewhere
in mind' Now I am a forgotten foreigner
forevermore
full
of
forgetfulness
of
now
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(228)
For
every gate
that
opens
a
crowd cheers
I
can't see
but
I hear
as
the melody of strangers
asking
for change
like
any weekend weather person would
9-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(218 B)
The
only predictable future
we
well
ever
experience
is
when we do
what
we do
of
what we chose to do
4-19-93
(936 B)
I
couldn't
t
wait
so
I rushed toward
the
open door...
only
realizing there was no floor
on
the other side
after
my free-fall had begun
lucky
for me
I
carry a parachute everywhere
for
just such an emergency
4-12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(317 A)
In
broken images
and
meaningless dreams
the
future is drafted
and
superglued into place
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(554)
While
breaking shackles off of
who
we perceived we were to each other
we
fell in love
with
who we would have been
if
broken shackles long ago
had
shown us now - then
11-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 C)
While
waiting for a new leader
humanity
put on clean wool socks
and
though it is true
everyone
was as lost as ever
we
all had warm feet
that
didn't smell
and
with over five billion people
that
is what is important.
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1814 B)
Platonistic
specialization
almost
stopped love's integrating freedom
from
taking flight
out
of the mystic plagued night
that
descended so long ago
but
now nears its end
as
we break the 2000 year old shackles
off
of the slaves
we
have been
4-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1204)Until just a moment ago
everything
made sense
now
I
will have to
start
all over again
so
I say it was logical
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1574 B)
In
the silence of my memory
you
whispered a song
we
once danced too
under
a spring filled song
in
Golden Gate Park in 1967
And
in closed eyes
I
now disappear
into
your long ago promise
'You'll
never need anyone else but me'
But
the ticking of my clock
the
barking of the dog
my
children yelling for dinner
makes
me open my eyes
remembering
I
hadn't thought of you
for
at least 20 years
until
now.
4-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(649 C)
I
am moving to Saturn
where
there is more room
more
moons
it's
a heavy place
the
days are longer
and
it takes 28 years to equal one year
so
now
I
can finally get all those things done
I
always said I would
and
go multi-moon gazing
with
the ones I love
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(292)
NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
is better than yesterday
tomorrow
will be worse
than
last Friday
But
next Tuesday
will
make yesterday look sad
so
there!
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1531 B)
Childhood
spent
childhood
saved
childhood's
woven parts
superglued
together to remember
the
moment each piece was a part of something bigger
that
went broom broom click click
tick
tick like a clock
(that
measured the passing days of childhood)
Children
never grow old
they
just sprout wings and fly away
returning
now and then
to
look at how everything
once
was together
once
was a part of a movement
once
was a part of everything that really mattered
until
like
sections of life they were reassembled
in
a mosaic of memory
just
abbreviations of symbolic wholes
where
one piece represents
what
was played with for weeks at a time
in
the labyrinth of childhood
and
now is but a collage
on
one of the walls of my life.
4-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(106)
they've
taken away
the
walls
left
me
with
no boundaries
no
blocked views
no
hiding place
I
roll up into a ball
and
roll out into the open space
I
never knew existed
until
they took away my walls
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1465 B)
While
stretching logic
like
some do the truth
I
noticed an empty explanation
in
the corner of a theory that could have unified it all
so
now I am proud to present
the
X factor that will unify all of existence
that
holds it all together
that
was there at the Big Bang
and
will be there at the Big Crunch
and
the little nibbles afterwards
and
wait for it
it
is laughter
that
holds it all together
Because
it is true (I was there)
the
beginning of this present universe
started
with a sneeze in the middle of a laugh
and
all the galaxies
are
just droplets from that sneeze
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1811 B)
the
meaning of aloha
(hello
- goodbye)
changed
when you never returned
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1410)
It
is better
to
seek agreement with ourselves
than
solicit it from someone else
don't
you agree?
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(682)
I
liked last month so much
I
didn't change the calendar
and
that made me so happy
I
decided to change it back
all
the way to when we met
twenty
years ago
when
I was only a day younger
than
I am now
according
to my calendar
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(496)
I
talk fast
because
I have so much to say
while
others listen slowly
so
they don't have to hear it all
but
that's o.k.
Because
the words in between
seldom
have much meaning
anyway
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(662 B)
...whether
is is better
to
be creative and poor
or
rich and uncreative
I
will know once I become rich
after
I find
the
most creative way to do it
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 A)
While
putting things in order
I
noticed how random
the
galaxies were tossed about
and
thought if they can do that
so
can I and that is why\
everything
looks so untidy
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1810 D)
I
wanted to believe
what
I used to
but
reality
swept
away the myths
But
I remember the stories
and
tell them to my children
who
never believed them
to
begin with
4-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(782 B)
There
are over 5 billion people on the planet
and
only one in this space
at
this time in history
with
these thoughts
and
it will never occur again
4-21-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1429 B)
I
thought it was
sounds
of waves crashing upon the shore
waking
me from sleep
But
it was just my stomach
telling
me to forget
my
diet
and
eat a snack
in
rhythm to waves upon the shore
4-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(668)
All
the strategy
of
all the people of all time
can't
stop the rising sun
or
love, death, taxes, birth
all
the philosophies, myths, beliefs
have
not changed the colour of the sky
the
size of a mountain
or
anything much of all
which
gives little meaning
to
why
ham
on rhyme
is
better than tofu on sprouts
8-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(14 B)
It
was as if
you
knew all along
and
had to wait
all
these years
for
me to realize
we
have been together
in
one form or another
since
the beginning
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(735 B)
Even
with
all
the distraction
of
these times
I
managed
to
deliver fax-free
in
person
all
my feelings for you
to
you
and
again tomorrow
too
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(178)
It
was as if yesterday
never
had ended
But
was just put on pause
for
us to experience NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
so
we could go back to it
tomorrow
again
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(734)
change
creates love
love
creates change
create
to change
change
to create
love
to change
change
to love
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(104)
So
simple to please
so
please be simple
and
let complications melt
like
I do
when
we are one
4-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1342)
I
wanted the last word
and
that's why I'm still here
in
the middle of time
and
I'll be around at the end
if
it too
just
to have
the
final say
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(776)
*
466 (12x12)
NEC
Just
before God
went off on holiday
I asked if things would change
There was no answer
that was when I realized
God had left earlier
than anticipated
leaving us
in change
to sort out the mess
we're in
June 7 1993 Victor Harbor copyright
Terrell Neuage868
*=465 11x11
NEC
In the fickle
realms of reality
meanings
are invented
as explanations
while in my world
where reality
is kept out by walls of gold
I am free
in the security
of illusion
and the realism of magic
cascading
through senses
that never were
to be included
in this world
but
and more ?
No! There was never meant to be anything
but this
passing dreams
we have been
seduced by
8-7-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell
Neuage580
* = 464
NEC
LIFE
IS SHORT AND STRANGE
LIKE
AN ANCIENT POEM
BUT
LIVES FOREVER
LIKE AN ANCIENT POEM
JUNE 8 93 894 Victor Harbor copyright
Terrell Neuage110 VICTORIA STREET
not
quite
but
close enough to have a name
different
but
up close it all looks the same
meanings
slip
away before dawn's early reveal
your
touch
for
a moment was almost real
tomorrow
maybe
longer
pattern
upon pattern
assembled
secrets
chant
my name
who
am I?
but
just another not a name
lingering
on the tip
of
too many swallowed
meanings
and
by listening once again
the
whispering shadow
reveals
your
touch made me real
7/28/93
110 Victoria Street (1134)
THE
WHISPERING MIST
REVEALED
YOUR
TOUCH MADE ME REAL
SO
NO LONGER
A
SHADOW TOO
I'D
BE
7/28/93
100 Victoria Street (1486)
in
Sarajevo, Belfast, Beirut, Victor Harbor, Los Angeles,
trees
grow flowers bloom rain falls
doing
what they've been governed to do always
like
humans
fulfilling
genetic destiny
to
war, dispute, desire but never learn
and
over looking nature
who
will be and always has been unlike humans
who
were created
for
nature's amusement
and
who will stay
until
something better
can
be created
(this
time with some proper genes)
a
few dawns
down
the road
a
few yawns
left
in the mold
a
few pawns
of
nature's soul
then
wooosh
only
nature
left
humans
left
7/29/93
(614(
STARS
SO FAR AWAY
take
no notice of our daily
wants
wishes
dreams
desires
loves
losses
games
growths
problems
possessions
beliefs
bingo
troubles
thoughts
adventures
appreciations
families
fortunes
But
live their cycles
no
matter what we do
like
love
so
far away
yet
always
within
sight
7/29/93
110 Victoria Street (1352)
Why
only in my waking dream
before
dawn's shadow stealing smile
do
I find us
so
wrapped together
like
once we knew
but
too soon forgot?
You
not on the earth
me
so imprisoned in this form
dreams
link us when I am not quite here
And
you so surely elsewhere
is
memory playing with mirrors deep in my brain
this
perfect hologram of you
reflecting
our love forever
though
where forever we will be one
I
do not know
But
you are there constantly
(except
when I open my eyes
which
I do less all the time in fear of losing you forever
before
I find the way to you)
Handing
out your smile
asking
me to follow but I can't
the
dawn came you left NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today alone
once
again I am blind with my eyes open
7/29/93
110 Victoria Street (1818)
the
proof I have
that
much I had
to
prove
is
simple
I'm
a man
born
of hand-me-down-genes
explorers,
conquerors, kings, lovers, saints, jesters
it's
in the genes
fighter
pilot, basketballer, rocker, movie star
it's
in the dreams
NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today's
dreams tomorrow's genes
the
only proof
a
man will ever need
7/29/93 110 Victoria Street (1424)
just
as I wrote
in
New Orleans, Paris
Honolulu,
Fiji, Berlin
Sydney,
Auckland, London Bangkok
And
the places in between
I
will write someday
in
a space colony
flying
past Mars
or
on a moon of Jupiter
just
as my ancestors
from
caveman, to Plato, Jesus, King Arthur, handfuls of Kennedys
Don
Juan-Don Quixote-Don Terrell
and
the ones in between
I
will write on and on and on
just
as all men before me
'how
doth I get me a woman tonight'
TECHNOLOGY
CHANGES
MAN'S
MIND NEVER WILL
7/29/93
110 Victoria Street (868)
winter
on parade
frozen
waitings
wanting
wonderful
though weird
we
were
writing
upon frozen consciousness
like
human beliefs
frozen
in place
for
thousands of years
needing
a
good nuclear winter
to
start the cycle
over
once
again
7/30/93 110 victoria street (1816)
I
had you in my dream
we
made morning come
I
had you in my dream
you
gave birth to our shadow
I
had you in my dream
safe-sex
again this morning
7/29/93 110 Victoria Street (456)
POSSESSION
while
in a dream
silent
mist's shadows
its
illusive impulses
becoming
incoming coming
wrapped
by your desire
projected
in astral illusions
I
opened up you entered
took
my body for a spin
around
la Grand Palais
through
la Arc de Triomphe
(where
'we' had a few in a nearby shadow)
then
the disco
on
Boulevard la Villette
where
'we' charged a night of pleasure
on
my wife's credit cards
now
awake me in my own body
back
at the hotel
I
try to explain to my wife
that
it was not me on the all night carousel
as
love's scents ooze out of my body
and
my hoarse gin breath vainly whispers
but
but but
it
wasn't me I was asleep
while
my body was being used
as
all men's are in the final analysis
7/30
110 Victoria Street (1810)
The
last time
I
saw my love
was
where she stood swaying in scented smile
selling
her body
to
passing relatives and friends
on
her fund raising drive
to
buy Bibles for the Russians
and
provide low cost love
for
the poor
july
31/93 110 Victoria Street
if
all my heroes knew me
would
they still believe
they
were just
a
mistake of nature
too?
7/31/93
110 Victoria street (342)
Too
often
while
meaning something else
the
rain fell
the
farmer cheered
sport
fans jeered
Too
often
while
meaning something else
the
waves swelled
fishermen
ran ashore
surfers
grabbed their boards
Too
often
while
meaning something else
I
ask for love
but
never for long
7/31/93
110 Victoria Street (1552)
The
last time
I
saw my love
was
where she stood smiling
selling
her body
to
passing relatives and friends
on
her fund raising drive
to
buy Bibles for the Russians
and
provide low cost love
for
the poor
7-31-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell NeuageSA (1408)
While
being slaves of love
men
will never be free
to
be possessed by nature
naturally
8/01
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 A)
men
are born free
(according
to the constitution)
but
all women cost
(according
to reality)
8-10-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(970)
contact
made
like
being one
past
minutes
equalled
rolling
forever
automatically
like
thoughts once so sure
to
find the reason
for
this
is
too
and
little
more
8-10-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(130)
While
writing worthless rhymes
I
fell off of a verbal
burble
and
never found
my
way back
8-01-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1815 B)
I
met a man
whose
stories came true
as
soon as they were heard
I
met a woman
whose
songs came true
as
soon as they were heard
I
met a child
whose
wishes came true
as
soon as they were heard
But
I've never met
anyone
who
knew
how
this
ends
August
11 93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(538)
Driven
passion
leaps
hurdles
forward
thrusting
life
changes
in
blinks
faster
than Pluto's stolen shadows
past
burn fast
the
new me
you
see
is
to be free
without
thought
of
patience
for
the role
I
once played
10-02-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(158)
While
wishfully waiting
we
watched where we were
sneak
us into
last
night's remembered touch
and
while loosing control
lost
in your breath
we
disappeared
never
to be seen again
11-03-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1815 A)
Like
a new page of life
turned
too many times
morning's
misting memories
made
me
remember
you
when
we galloped forests
to
our allegoric lake
We
rolled in laughing love
and
captured fleeing passions
that
never wanted flight
to
begin with
Like
now
in
too many turned pages\
to
remember
when
first
we
started over
this
our allegoric night
11-04-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(906)
Asking
answers' allegiance
while
not
leaves
outdoors there
11-05-93
V ictor Harbor (56)
SHOCKED!
Perception's
reflected illusion
reversed
reality
I
couldn't see
But
only beg
I
couldn't feel
beliefs
were all wrong
morning
was night
flowers
turned to seed
touch
turned to stone
that
made no words
I
slept while awake
But
IT was all a dream
this
isn't
no
longer
Shocked!
11-05-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1260)
forgotten
foreign feelings
forged
freedoms
final
fate
no
longer here
11-6-93
(218 b)
without
all the differences
there
would
be
no
picture
11-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1819 b)
In
dawn's early revival
I
cheered
to
know
this
show
I
was part of
once
again
11-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(559b)
While
at centre stage
I
changed my script
so
this performance
you
see
is
but a change
I'm
going through
11-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 a)
I
won
I
lost
I
was
I
am
11-06-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(856)
Changes
came quickly before summer's settled passions
oaths
were whispered as spring sown seeds settled passions
the
times surely so seemingly sullen
would
be remembered when now
would
be read as ancient history
inventions
failing prospering believers
found
anything to hold onto gelatinous as first love
But
there is the future no one knows everyone predicts
Though
no one is quite correct
Touch
my mind in pulled forth desires
dig
deep death's dwindling demand
take
changes
reshape
nature's woken woven womb
whisper
to the deaf
wave
to the blind
walk
with the lame
wake
the dead
wonder
what was where when no one was there
Fleeing
freedom fondles the enslaved
shackles
clasp the different
But
for all the troubles
all
the worries
all
the struggles
That
this all important tragedy firmly hangs onto
Nothing
can be greater that to know some day
This
moment will be viewed as but a hiccup in nature
when
changes came quickly
and
oaths were whispered only to never be harvested
The
future came too fast to think of now as anything more
than
a passing shadow eclipsed
11-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(104)
Your
touch
the
change
global
warming
here
to stay
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1900 - D)
initial
surrender
lost
time
borrowed
destiny
controlled
laughter
on
we could go
choice
so rare
or
here stay
dwell;
on
the
whence
of
it all
11-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(572)
I
thought we could share the moment
as
if it were
the
last, the first, even forever
we'd
be unleashed nature
watching
humanity begging for rest
we
would be the condemned's
final
wish
the
cry at birth
the
anguish at the end
the
fireworks at the completion
of
the games
the
ecstasy of every experience
pulsating
in one Grand Moment
I
would be your knight, love, knight, love, king, slave,
fool,
hero...
even
a new-age male
if
such a perversion
was
your wish
Oh!
I'm sorry
you
just were asking me what time it was
here,
in front of the caulaflowers and parsley
at
the supermarket
11-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(680)
Caught
in between changes
without
names
theories
without masks
desires
without dreams
caught
in between voids
where
changes create
voids
creating
change
10-8-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(102)
Forgotten
once
again
like
watching life pass too quickly
without
holding onto
passing
reality
nothing
comes to be forgotten
and
a man in the last row
waves
his hands and yells
"forgotten
I'm
forgotten"
But
no one hears him
as
the crowds huddle together
trying
to remember
what
they had forgotten
11-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(218 b)
I
tossed away meaning
like
I do apple cores
But
it's o.k.
the
seeds will grow
and
produce meaning
like
I once did
before
tossed away moments
were
used for the landfill programme
at
the edge of the swamp
to
build skyscraping apartments
for
people to sit in
wondering
why there were so many memories
tossed
about.
11-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(692)
So
much the end here:
less
likely futures' glimpse
echoes
momentary freedom;
and
here brought forth meaning
holds
wind chimes'
rhyme
nature's
time
the
end falls
from
sight
the
past strips naked
and
sun bathes alongside memory's reflected copulation
HEAR
so
much the end.
11-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1332)
When
the patterns changed
so
much the end looked clear
everything
was answered
time
lost prescription space discovered dimension
all
figured out the way it should be
why
it never is I don't recall
each
time a different ending
still
the same
always
far from the way it should be
if,
all-figured-out
was
true.
11-14-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1782)
While
building on what went before
I
saw tomorrow
glance
around the corner
and
thank me
for
the foundations
for
future's experience.
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809)
Too
late the thaw
when
winter's open door
lays
waste
hasty
autumn's retreat
and
ice slices
fields
of harvest forgotten
too
late too late
like
life known
and
frozen in winter's
crystal
memory
waiting
for spring
like
every lover does
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1540)
While
laughing at the changes
even
making believe they weren't real
this
moment took flight
with
me in tow
And
I have no intention of every returning
to
say
these
changes now
are
anything more
than
forever lost in flight.
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1810 A)
Each
variation
is
but an interpretation
of
choice.
11-17-932
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(170)
While
floating upon
thoughts
of you
the
world slipped away
leaving
me to wonder
where'd
I'd be
if
I wasn't floating upon thoughts of you
11-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage((1809 C)
What
we shared
even
tomorrow will remember
flying
free forever foreign feelings
while
watching where we merge
as
always we expected
we
would
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1744)
Without
appearing
repetitious
all
I want to know is
have
I presented before
what
now
so
often it seems I search
the
touch
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1826)
WELL!
The
point never was anything
anymore
than not appearing
in
changing beliefs:
Like
a stunt actor
filling
in
while
this moment goes on
and
I stay behind
11-16-93
(1684)
More
like new morning
each
thought of you becomes
11-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(974)
Surprised
the
prize rises
but
no one held their breath
the
wind blew instead
in
its tortured
swallowed
way
surprise
surprise
silently
the moment explodes
ripping
satin covered dreams
and
ravaged virgin thoughts
Take;
me
Give
me
There
is no exchange
when
new born hope drowns
where
too the end?
never
knows who to tell
11-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1366)
Changes
like
dreams
are
programmes
synchronizing
who
we'd be
if
all we could be
was
let free.
11-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(104)
Perception
is just interpretation
And
how I perceived you
when
we met so long ago
is
still the same
because
I
never listened too
the
world's interpretation
4-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1192)
For
everything that became
in
the way we thought it would
good
on ya
and
how'd it happen
so
as to do it all again
NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
4-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(218 B)
If
I hadn't eaten tomorrow
there'd
be something
for
the rest of you all
to
look forward to
but
since there isn't
I'll
take your praise NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
and
remember you well
tomorrow
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(374)
creativity
is a natural
mutation
of nature
free-will
is its mutinous crew
and
we
the
passing strangers to this life,
the
disillusioned captains
looking
for a better course
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(136)
love
is a bird
blown-away
on
the first day of hunting season
4-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(948)
love
is an experiment
that
nature evolves with while
philosophy,
religion, psychology
politics
and the economy
are
the stumbling blocks
after
the hurdles
on
the way
to
love's tasteful experiment
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(956)
I
take all the concepts
put
forth in a philosopher's
life
and
sum it up in a few lines
and
feel good for all the trees saved
instead
of explaining in volumes of books
'ain't
she nice?
and
that's why we're here folks...'
4-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(872 B)
The
new empirical theory of blind love
is
you and me
out-of-sight
out-of-mind
together
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1410)
While
searching through
memories
on file
I
accessed the spring dawn
when
we rose out of our selves
in
tune to the sound of our breath
that
echoes now
through
a deep memory of long ago
and
where are you now
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1811 B)
In
forests of forgotten flavours forever forgives foreign freedom for fighting
frozen memories
tonight
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(562)
The
most creative moment of the day
is
a moment before we awake
when
the waking hours are designed
then
hidden behind the screen of back-on-earth again
like
when we were born
and
to change that moment
would
be to change
creation
itself
which
my dog told me
just
before I awoke
this
morning
that
is not our lot to do
probably
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1410)
unlike
other poets
who
try to sound all flowery, rhyming, mystical, and abstract
I
prefer to write down-to-earth-truck-driver's-poetry
like
'hey,
where ya goin' baby?
how
about some real lovin' tonight'
and
no poet has ever said it
quite
as beautiful as that.
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1573)
We
began where we left off
only
the century had changed
Now
there are flying things
with
people in them
and
mechanical monsters
carrying
the people
doing
the work
yeap
it was different
but
we are the same
I
suppose
everyone
really
is
at
night with the lights out
it
could be 400 BC still
and
you would taste just as good
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1630)
I
went to count my money
like
I once did my women
OH
NO!
broke
again
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(850 D)
full
of worry
that
missing you
would
blind me
from
starting over
with
someone else
who
someday I'd miss too
like
I once did
and
now worry
will
never stop
you
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(234)
I
showed everything I felt
lucky
for me
the
President said
it
was just another
nuclear
accident
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(649 G)
I
waited to see if anything
would
ever become of me
before
accepting my fate
to
be kind of all the local galaxies
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(772)
In
my humble opinion
God
should be
fired
4-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(566)
If
we had stopped saying
this
is too difficult
in
1777
let's
go home for tea
we
wouldn't be
watching
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on
the 6 o'clock news
4-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(418 B)
I
was so sleepy
I
slept standing up
while
the world
lay
on its side
watching
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(8
Like
a cloud-free
wind
strewn sea
I
reached to be free
But
a dawn hugged horizon
showed
me
BOUND
and ALONE
to
WISHES and DREAMS
that
filtered through
passing
times
when
voices believed
merged
with my final thought
sinking
this
wind stream sea
with
me
gasping
for a new philosophy
that
made sense
to
my drowning world.
6-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(898)
waiting
for love
is
like waiting for a computer to load
with
so much memory
and
functions
that
no end is ever to be
unless
it becomes unplugged
and
has no back up batteries.
6-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1062)
So
cold
sun
so far away
night
so close
of
ever I'm warm again
I'll
save it
at
least
in
memory
so
that when I'm so cold anew
my
memory will thaw
my
frozen perceptions
that
chill me so now
6-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1302)
if
love
has
to
be
explained
it
then is a philosophy
6-3-9
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(40)3
everything
we do
is
just a preliminary
for
when
there
is nothing
left
to do
6-3-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(196)
I
don't know why
can't
explain it now
perhaps
never will
but
life never ends
only
perceptions
of
the moment end
like
this verse
one
line at a time
7-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(327 B)
Not
enough time?
where'd
it go ?
Not
enough space?
who
filled it up?
not
enough love?
why'd
they take more than their share?
painted
greatness?
we
ate the colours
trying
to fill time
erase
space
wash
away loneliness
And
that is why
I
am here
you
are not
7-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1130 B)
packaged
feelings
on
tour
your
love
my
souvenir
come
again
like
your smile
foreign
visa
desire's
passport
This
is not the real me
I
am just like this
because
I'm on holiday
your
touch
my
souvenir
of
packaged feelings
placed
away
for
a rainy day
when
I'm without you.
6-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1182)
spent
the day
sitting
in a warm bubble bath
watching
life's truths
ricochet
off bubbles
unlike
my children
Though
I was being lazy
not
making their meals
sewing
clothes
cleaning
house
But
I worked very hard to find truths
here
in the bubble bath
and
the truth is
it
is better in here
than
out there.
8-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1342)
poems
like
dreams
love
fantasies
and
were never meant to be
translated
interpreted
realized
8-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1210)
Without
amnesia
we
can never
know
youth's passion again
like
a flower closed
would
open again
if
it chose
to
break free
of
what it perceived
to
be its only way
to
be
9-7-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1825 C)
I
translated my feelings
for
you
in
so many ways
that
I forgot
which
language
you
understand
and
I'm left incoherent
like
love is
7-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(720)
it
was as if tomorrow had never had happened
and
what
we
were looking forward to
was
yesterday
before
time had yet to discover
liberality.
7-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(735 A)
The
problem with my writing
is
that it begins
before
it ends
just
like us
now
at
our beginning
7-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1424 C)
stayed
awake
when
I went to sleep
to
see
where
dreams begin
and
I discovered
the
truth
dreams
are televised broadcasts
from
a planet of a neighboring star
and
their electronic waves
always
passing through the earth
are
on the same frequency
as
our dreams
so
it's obvious that what we dream
is
just so many soap opera
from
a distant star
7-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1352 C)
Sitting
side-saddled
on
a shadow
should
show
shades
of substance
finally
found
so
fulfilled
But
as times travel
so
do shadows
never
showing
which
side
is
best
like
love
and
the morning after
and
shadows of fences
yet
to hurdle
6-10-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1278)
I
thought you were
someone
else
than
you are
You
thought I was someone different
than
I really am
so
our someone else
got
together and had a real good life
while
the real you and me
have
had a terrible time
being
together
wondering
why we weren't
someone
else
together
6-9-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(680 B)
The
good poets
write
about
Zeus,
buffaloes, dew, trees, morning
But
since no real man
is
really a poet
I
write only about
nails,
hammers, chopping trees,
footy,
beer, and trucks
Because
no one
wants
sensitive
when
they can be a man
6-10-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1402 C)
While
waiting for fame
I
lived and died
and
left behind
nothing
at all
Because
I found fame
on
a distant galaxy
that
will last a lot longer
than
this short lived galaxy
our
short lived sun
spends
its short life
shinning
on
a
short lived planet.
6-10-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1815 A)
Behind
the mountains
Beyond
the sea
in
the depths we believed
Bright
birth borrowed
tomorrow
thinking
forever was a circle
now
that we know better
we
can rest easy
and
live now
like
we are
in
the midst of forever
6-12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(78)
The
evolution of belief
brings
little relief
when
the beginning
is
unknowable
until
now
But
for $4.95 plus $5.50 postage and handling
all
the answers
will
be questioned
and
if you act now
a
free match will be given
for
evolution of belief
to
return
to
the ashes it first rose from
6-12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1402 A)
while
empty of thought
I
caught
a
meaningless pattern
shapeless
as love
when
first met
I
placed it in a motionless container
while
rain outside suspiciously fell
and
wrote in a cloud above it
'Beware
- meaningless pattern near'
but
the rain erased my sign
and
flooded my empty thoughts
So
if I pretend to understand
and
smile awhile
remember
so
I won't have to next line
6-12-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage((1809 F)
To
say what everyone wants to hear
like
the great Australia statement
is
the only reason
all
else
will
be fillers
until
that time
6-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1552 B)
As
complex
the
future may be:
life
will be simple
needs
met
wishes
answered
dreams
controlled
with
instant answers
perfect
solutions
yet
still no cure
for
love
will
exist
which
is little
different
than
in
the beginning
6-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 B)
Sun
rises
rain
falls
river
flow
mountain
sit
while
the rest of us
run
around in circles
sorting
our selves out.
If
we know something nature doesn't
should
we say
'hey,
we're humans
we
got it all figured out'
or
should we let nature
continue
along
without
our help
6-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1362 C)
Love
like a sun rise
happens
every day
but
only if we're awake
do
we experience it
6-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(956 C)
While
swimming
to
the end of this dream
I
encountered reality
floating
on top
in
a bubble
but
like all reality
it
popped
on
closer inspection
6-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1811 E)
Without
words
without
birds
we
wouldn't know
a
sentence in flight
And
I would be unable
to
say Mars is covered
with
tomato soup
the
moon was of green cheese
Venus
- lettuce
and
Pluto is made from tofu
(or)
in general
we
live in an edible section
of
the milky way
but
whether we are dessert
or
the main course
I
can not really say
6-13-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1819 H)
EMPTY
that
is the only explanation
FULL
is
the goal
LOST
is
the way
pieces
lay alongside the road
huddled
together in hysteria
the
state of the condition
is
frozen within its code
laughter
screams in baroque sonnets
it
will be o.k.
it
will be o.k.
the
earth will shatter at mid-day
splintered
with all its wisdom
art,
poetry and good sex
into
so many empty pieces
by
some love lost comet
and
no one will know
that
once we cared
6-15-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(176)
Final
moments exit
in
rhythm to echoes
of
a pulsar
at
the end of our small universe
but
no one knows why
we're
so off-key
and
nature isn't
6-15-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(212)
to
understand
is
to not to believe
6-15-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1560)
while
getting in touch with my feelings
I
tripped over reason
fell
in love
and
broke my heart
now
in hospital
I
was given plastic surgery
and
though I now look like
a shadow
of myself
at
least I'm in touch
with
myself
6-15-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 I)
For
the first time
with
no reason in sight
we
were free
to
be ourself
6-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(218 E)
while
waiting for the right moment
nothing
happened
and
that was the right
moment
6-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1815 A)
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passed with little importance
and
so was added
to
a pile of yesterdays
and
sent to
a
far corner of the universe
to
be recycled
as
important days
for
the inhabitants
of
a distant planet
who
live forever
on
our discarded memories
6-16-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1531 C)
As
far as dreams can go
we
will find
the
end
to
where
what
will
we
want
with
what
we want
where
we were
when
we were
who?
6-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 B)
Countless
times I stayed awake
to
worry about
what
would happen
only
to find
everything
changed
so
much
I
couldn't keep up
with
worrying
so
now
like
the endless line
of
pine trees on the edge of town
wondering
whether
they
will become tooth picks
firewood
a
book of poems
or
a Christmas tree
I
wonder
too.
6-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1166)
I
wrote yesterday
for
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forgetting
it is me
and
not time
that
doesn't change
but
stays the same
at
least in thought
6-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(860)
I
took all the mistakes
ever
I made
and
lined them up
they
reached to the moon
and
now I will walk on them
and
bring back some
green
cheese and market it
Before
anyone else
gets
the chance
6-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(686)
It
has always been
how
to start
that
has puzzled
and
baffled
everyone
so long
But
not me
because
I never start
6-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(663 B)
Passions
flame
quickly
came
like
youthful desire
burns
in the fire
turns
to ash
then
to dash
off
into age
another
page
is
turned
past
burned
and
the future is remembered
before
it is experienced
while
where we had been
is
left like so many ruffled leaves
7-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1186 B)
The
fools have died again
traded
their life
for
a belief
fought
wars to protect dreams
crucified
themselves for faith
sacrificed
their lives
thought
we all cared
those
left behind
playing
at the casinos
dancing
at the discos
tasting
love along the shore
they
don't care
what
the dead believe
while
they lay bleeding
with
some noble delusion\
floating
in their head
we
the living are the heroes
because
we knew enough
not
to fight the losing battle
that
death always is
7-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1402)
Death
loves nature
in
cycles of birth
nourishing
eternal sleep
society
endures suffering
and
calls it purpose
the
reason to continue
for
lessons to learn
then
quickly forgotten
when
death loving nature
takes
one's final breath
so
to suffer si so wrong
to
love one forever will never be
right
morals and happy thoughts die too
when
death loving nature
takes
the final breath that had happened
for
something more
at
the end of this life
than
a grave that no one can ever free
themselves
from
neither
to walk heaven's golden streets
or
sweat hell's guilty flames
7-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(144)
What
is poem if not to question?
Written
in stops and gaps
unlike
nature flowing free
who
but man would sentences leave unfinished?
to
toss about words
like
a juggler at the matinee?
what
is poem
but
meaning gone astray?
waiting
for the best minds to pick up
the
content and bury the metre and rhymes
and
name themselves critics
while
expecting a good wage
to
tell what the poverty struck poet
really
was saying
Because
he was to daft
to
make it clear to begin with
and
too lazy
to
get a proper means of support to begin with
for
what is poem
but
an abbreviated excuse
to
begin with
7-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1738 B)
EUHEMERISM
Funeral
are for the living
the
dead will not see the roses and tulips picked
waiting
to wilt and die
on
a casket made for the living
What
a waste the dead are
filling
cemeteries
where
skyscrapers of offices and frenzied secretaries
or
a freeway or a new bowling alley
could
be put in place instead
Shame
on the dead
leaving
bodies to pollute the world and take up valuable space
the
dead are gone
leave
'em be
why?
when
I die I wouldn't be her any longer
take
my body
the
good parts give 'em to someone alive
and
the rest feed to the lions
at
Central Park Zoo
for
once long ago
I
was a Christian and the lions still remember
when
I am dead and all this is left
is
my crying children and scribbled poems
do
not wrap my death and fill the ground
to
shelter my bones
because
funerals are for the living
the
dead are too far away and sound asleep
to
ever care
7-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(234 B)
The
life she made
the
life she lived
thoughts
no one else dared to possess
love
to desire's full extent
children
born children raised
hopes
and dreams
some
even fulfilled
years
and years
life's
toil
it
was all headed somewhere
until
a robber stabbed her
she
dies on the subway platform amidst rush hour traffic
people
rush by
stepping
over a life no more
to
get home
in
time for dinner and evening t.v.
not
wishing th think
tomorrow
it could be them
stabbed
to death for a few dollars
the
sum value of one's life
to
a passing stranger
a
few dollars
the
price of a cheap bottle of wine
drunk
in haste over a life once so full
7-2-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1408)
We
slipped away
between
the rain and bridge
and
memories of before
along
mirrored streets
in
pregnant whispers
we
wanted to hide behind NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
and
jump out and surprise a future
the
wind was strong
I
felt your heart beat inside my breast
if
only we could be longer than this passing storm
I
would lie with you in the rain
until
memories died of exhaustion
then
we'd float away
like
we've done every time before
7-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1702)
We
played in words
juggled
meanings
contested
emotions
And
still I wanted you to know
I
wanted you so
But
there were no oscars or trophies
for
unknown acts
feelings
came feelings left
But
I never could keep straight
which
one was the right one
Now
you're gone
Now
I'm not
Now
the
words play off of my performance
just
like once they did when meaning made sense
and
the game was to be played not to be lost
but
to be shared before too late
changed
all to this past
that
will always be
just
apart of a part
and
never again
an
all
like
us
again
now
7-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1694)
We
camped in childhood
well
away from who we'd be
when
the world
would
want more than
what
we were
when
wooded wishes
were
so real
7-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1636)
In
love
the
game
is
to be played
not
to be lost
7-6-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(564)
When
at last
we
take our mask off
is
it not strange
that
at that moment
our
life ends
7-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1746)
HOW
LONG THE BATH?
When
first hot and bubble filled
like
before birth
if
I could imagine such
when
news is someone else's life
war,
discovery, money, sex, hunger
the
precise media
shocking
a concise audience once again
"oh
the way things are
what
will become of it all?"
take
me back to the slavery of the womb
or
at least this hot bubble bath
where
I lay in evolution's start
was
it not out of a warm bubble bath
that
life first emerged?
I
understand
we
are sorry Sarajevo, Belfast, Lebanon, LA,
City
Streets everywhere
The
South will rise again
out
of a warm bubble bath
But
for now like in the beginning
and
to be at the end
I
wash my genes
I
soak my soul
I
merge quickly before the water turns cold
and
the bubbles disappear
like
death does
when
life reappears
7-17-93
7-17-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1748)
Your
guess
is
as good as mine
and
every human ever to guess
7-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1886)
My
reality is another's nightmare
my
dreams
someone
else's reality
7-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(998)
I
came to this world in my body
and
I will leave without it
the
meaning of which
if
only I knew
I'd
be the wises of all people
the
starter of a religion
the
leader of every follower
the
host of my own t.v. show
just
like Jesus and all the rest were
A
superstar
a
living legend
with
the philosophy
to
match
7-17-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(311 E)
Plato
if you discovered death was but a change
and
came back to earth with no memory of pasts
would
you believe again what once you lied
or
would you be a common hooker
standing
at the corner of Hollywood and Vine
like
all the other greats throughout history
have
done at one time or another
and
I've seen them all waiting for a trick
like
before Emerson, Arthur, Jesus, Aristotle, Einstein,
Jung,
Mary, Joan of Arc, the saints
philosophers.
poets and artists
T
they all taken their turns
selling
themselves for a few coins
not
knowing once they had known the way
to
get so many to believe
when
nature used them
like
the world does no
so
well
7-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1203 B)
with
a day gone by
to
have nothing to remember it by
is
to have it go by without ever having been
but
to cast a poem
plot
a painting
network
a joke worldwide
on
a bulletin-board
is
to access interactively nature's
transparent
lines
is
to bond in memory
forever
that
there was more
to
the day
than
the passing wind
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Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1819 C)
everything
was put aside
giving
a clean slate
like
birth
new
impressions were everywhere
old
interpretations
like
in a philosophical amnesic
surprised
even
reason made sense
though
feelings still didn't
and
everything is now so new
and
exploratively different
that
(and
it sounds so radical)
I
can
(justifiably)
write
(without
shock)
the
END
and
know it is only the beginning.
7-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(194)
I
dreamt
of
a moment like this
now
if
only
I
could recall
what
happened
it
would be so sensible
7-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(335 B)
everything
every
moment
every
thought
is
to be grand
the
ultimate
what
everything
was
done for
while
all before
was
little more
than
the step to now
like
winter to spring is
7-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(192)
While
exploring every thought ever had
I
was amazed to discover
they
were all edible
and
luckily
calorie
free
like
rain
which
has reflected
the
world as it travelled
to
earth
so
far
7-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 F)
As
we dreamt
in
anticipation
of
what waking would be
life
separated
leaving
us
in
dream
for
evermore
7-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(62 B)
Close
to the end
meanings
so poignant
that
the thought will last a thousand years if not more
If
God came to earth 2000 years ago
wow!
why
didn't he make a video of it?
why
go through the dark ages
(the
years before television)
without
seeing the way it was
why
didn't the crusaders
have
land Rovers and laser weapons?
Why
didn't Jesus use a microwave oven?
to
warm the food for the 500,000 at Woodstock?
Why
didn't Caesar become a game-show host?
Why
walk on water when one can use a hover craft and skim the top?
who
changed the water to wine to blood
at
Sarajevo, Belfast, La and in the Townships?
Why
didn't the twelve disciples
form
a baseball team instead of just getting stoned?
Why
didn't the Church build football stadiums instead of churches?
Why
would one leave the job of making billions of suns - many with
earth
like planets - and come to our earth?
Well
it is all so obvious
God
did leave videos
and
when they are discovered (beneath my house)
I
can say
'see
I told you so'
7-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(118)
When
what was expected
drowned
in the rain
covered
by an avalanche
blown
away be reality
believe
in the immense energy
involved
to
make so much expected
be
but a fart in time
7-28-93
(1800)
I've
worked so hard
to
become everything
I
never wanted to be
that
if
what
I wanted
happened
ever
no
longer would I know
would
you?
7-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(766)
as
if endings really were:
Like
stepping out of circles
abandoning
cycles
spirals
lateralness
can only operate in a circle
(giving
it the new age illusions we love to share)
leaves
no end
beginnings
don't struggle
only
aborted consciousness does
leaving
returning
defining
refining
mouths
opened wide
everything
ever said is wrong
everything
ever written false
every
love has been scared
the
end now is nothing more
but
a return on the circle
to
doing it all wrong once again
7-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 B)
Morning
swallowed
my
dreams
made
me hungry
to
see if
they'd
come true
like
everything else
I
believe in
does
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(978)
At
the beginning
when
all there was
was
already there
waiting
to be put together
like
you and me
and
the galaxies
too
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(64)
I
was so sleepy
I
slept standing up
while
the world
lay
on its side
watching
5-1-93
(838)
the
reason
we
are here
is
because dawn
doesn't
want to
come
alone
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1430)
like
steps through history
or
a wander through dreams
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beliefs,efs
grew
out of yesterday's crumbled ideologies
for
tomorrow's
individual
freedom
finally
won
to
take wings
never
to land again
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(916)
I
learned shorthand
speed
reading
computerization
experienced
Paris in a day
read
'Readers Digest'
condensed
pasteurized homogenized great novels
and
watched history of civilization
but
time stood still
when
your touch
became
so
involved
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(492)
I
concentrated so hard
on
this moment
that
yesterday and tomorrow disappeared
now
like
neapolitan ice cream
melted
contains
the former and the latter
in
a future past tense
that
has no ease
of
explanation
in
this moment
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(316 C)
There
is little difference
between
you and me
except
that I am conscious
of
the little difference
(even
calling them my own)
and
you see them
being
but variations
of
your greater self
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1430 D)
This
life goes so fast
that
when I die
I
will need
a
thousand years
to
review all that happened
in
this life
5-1-93
(1508)
The
continuous pouring out
of
creativity
fueled
forever's freedom's
perceptual
persuasion's performance
reflected
perfectly
for
me
to
know
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1394)
I
wouldn't want to live on Venus
because
there are no trees
nor
on Mars with its lack of flowers
and
there is no chocolate on Jupiter
or
ice cream on Mercury
while
on earth
everything
I want
is
between the sea
the
trees
and
the shopping mall.
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(858)
If
I knew how to write
a
poem
I
would
if
I knew how to sing
I
would
If
I could dance, take photos
paint
or tell your future
I
would
But
all I can do
is
build you a castle
in
the sand
and
offer it to you
before
the sea
take
it from me
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(376)
the
reason
we
don't have wings
is
because we don't have to fly north
for
the winter
But
can stay all winter-warm
wrapped
in each other's
warmth
5-1-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(946)
The
reason
we
keep coming to earth
is
to learn to stop dying
but
we keep
getting
into the Plato trap
of
this is it
why
keep going
5-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(946 C)
Not
every time
is
everything
going
to be
the
way it is
at
other times
But
instead
like
any spinning top everything gets a chance\
to
be close at hand
again
if
we see
5-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1130 C)
We
rush through life
like
we're in a hurry
to
get to the end
not
knowing what it is
except
that
it
will be different
than
the rush through
this
life is
5-593
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1768)
I
write
for
the same reasons
a
bird flies
far
from an oil slick
a
whale stays away
from
a stream
and
buffaloes avoid mountains
I
write only
to
find these answers
that
everyone else
already
knows
5-5-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(858)
y
d
in
by
interpreters
who
think
they've
walked
on the moon too!
5-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(546 A)
Pick
a dream
make
the movie of it
choose
a belief
gather
a following
become
popular
like
a commercial
become
one with me
and
it will be a secret
just
between us
and
the stars above
all
22
trillion of them
5-18-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1196)
I
reached into the mist of nature's myths
trying
to remember
something
lost
long
ago
before
fables were told
when
truth was known
and
reality simple
with
no explanation needed to walk into
the
mist of mature's myths
to
create tales
to
explain
what
no longer can be known
and
wars persist to defend
the
stories that no one
no
longer
remember
as being made up
to
begin with
5-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(649 E)
If
we believed
everything
was false
would
we be
believers
5-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(410)
The
reason I turned 45
was
because
I
became bored
with
being a child
for
44 years.
5-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1430 B)
when
here
is
no longer questioned
for
the reason of its being
then
here
will
lose all
its
significance.
5-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1878)
Love
is
like a virtual reality game
as
long as there
are
enough coins to keep it going
the
game can
continue
5-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(954)
I
got so mixed up
that
I found myself lost
at
the travelling circus
now
I perform
finding
myself so often
I
got lost again
But
it was o.k.
Because
when the circus
left
I
didn't
5-19-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(442)
I
traded wisdom
for
a new hat
but
now that
I've
lost my head
I
don't need it
anymore
Now
if only
I
could trade
my
good luck
for
wings
I'd
fly free
and
away too.
5-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(710)
I
ran out of others
to
blame
until
I realized
I
could say
it
was my shadow
and
not me
5-20-93
(649 F)
The
reason
we
are so different
is
because
no
one else would
and
someone had to
play
the role of us
to
make it
complete
5-21-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1430 C)
While
sitting about
waiting
for the world to end
two
million people were born
3.5
million experienced love
5.7
million had hope
6.4
million got what they had hoped for
5
billion plus
didn't
see the world end
5-21-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1942)
raced
through
to
taste
every
experience
but
we collided
in
front of the grandstands
filled
with the memories
we've
been here before
and
Every-Time crashed
left
the scene
and
became another we
only
to do it all
just
again
5-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1764)
while
writing out
my
theory of
'why
we were together'
life
almost passed by
until
I
tossed it to the wind
and
though I received a fine
for
littering
it
was good
to
watch my theories of why we
felt
the way we do
go
to the dump
for
the land-fill programme
that
one day
will
be a park
with
trees
growing
on
my
theories
of
why
we
feel
this
way
5-22-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1962)
Lynn
Zimmerman
In
a quiet place in my mind
I
hold court with you
this
you know
the
way your thoughts
envelope
what I feel
your
freedom reminds me I'm still in this body
your
wish
that
you had not left
quite
so soon
created
structured sorrows
that
don't fit into my mind
where
I meet with you
in
a quiet place
in
a noisy world
wanting
to stay
wherever
you are
even
if only
in
my imagination
5-21-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(554 A)
Writing
around
encircling
thoughts
evolution
of forms
future
trappings
whose
to believe
even
if there was a right
like
limited time
and
understood dreams
count
me out
when
the change comes
I'll
be left
talking
to a tree
and
writing around
an
incoherent pass
5-21-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1996)
I
lived an unplanned life
listening
to nature's trumpets
and
human's lies
and
in between
the
audience
and
the stars
I
acted out
my
dream
5-20-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(501 B)
I
saw
how
this morning
swept
away yesterday
to
shine anew
like
I do
each
moment
I
awake
(with
you)
5-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(649 J)
Sharing
quietly
passions
passing passage
we
grew together
from
seed to flower
through
every storm
while
nature watched
so
she too
could
feel
what
we did
before
dawn
woke
us
from
dreams
of
passion's passing passages
5-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1254)
Seemed
like the end
shadows
of memory
flickered
like
ill adjectives
before
my eyes
I
asked if memories were eternal
but
the shadows
had
no voice
leaving
me
to
interpret endings
just
like everyone else
must
do
5-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1248)
while
you were with in reach
I
sat sail
believing
you'd always be just a ways
over
the horizon
for
whenever I turned back
to
be within reach once more
But
now I can't remember
which
horizon
you
were on the other side of
And
the seas
are
to rough
to
continue the search
5-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1952)
From
cave paintings
to
mobile phones
to
future mental links
no
one knows for sure
But
that's o.k.
But
that's o.k.
But
that's o.k.
though
no one really knows why
5-23-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(232)
There
must be something
worth
saying
to
wake nature's special smile
even
for awhile
to
ask her to
romp
and roll
whisper
and whistle
soft
and surely
like
in the beginning
when
time gave birth
to
nature's reason
and
nature were joy
knowing
we would too
before
dominion over the earth
caused
nature
to
wish
she'd
never been born
5-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1440)
When
I saw
how
much time
had
gone
birth
had winter flown
trees
tossed leaves
galaxies
shifted
mutinying
cells learned to smile
I
became still
like
a corrupt wind
waiting
for
a
reversal in time
that
only happens in this some same imagined hibernated dream
5-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1858)
Excuse
this appearance
I
just look like this
for
this one particular performance
and
soon
I
will be
who
I imagine I am
"beautiful
one day
perfect
the next"
5-24-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(200)
Borrowed
broke
beliefs
gave
not a little relief
but
like a wandering thief
took
my thrill
and
left me
with
the bill
5-24-9
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(200)
Wake
up wake up
morning
whispered
behind
curtains
long
ago placed
wake
up wake up
there's
more to see
than
you saw before
morning
sang
wake
up wake up
surprises
lives
beyond curtains
that
no longer
can
block out
this
wonderful morning
5-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1734)
I
saw all those experiences
we
had together
fly
off
to
the edge of our galaxy to wait for us
to
have them again
once
the one
we're
having now
is
over
5-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(620 B)
if
nature
took
a self-improvement course
we'd
be in trouble
like
she is
when
we try to
improve
on her
5-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(5-25-93
I
travelled so far to get to you
that
I had to call the Air Force
to rescue
me
from
the clouds
the
Coast Guard to rescue me
out
at sea
a
tracker
to
find me in the desert
a
psychic to get me back into this life
psychologists
to remind me I was still lost
But
finally I found the key and map to you
on
the back of the map to me
Now
we're lost together without thought
of
our desert island in the cloud far out to sea.
5-25-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(720 B)
Free
falling forever frozen
forgotten
freedom
captured
caricature
chosen
caution
like
any proud memory would
pay
attention
pay
attention
read
my thoughts
before
free
falling forever
freezes
fortunes freedom
and
at the door
destiny
cries
it
could have been me
it
should have been me
5-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(228 D)
May
came and went
rolling
in with the tide
and
disappeared
wearing
nothing more
than
a transparent wink
count
me in
I
know the lines
I
know the rhymes
but
in what language
does
God laugh
HO
HO HO
But
I know
like
any mad-man
would
that
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I
must invest
in
God
or
Wall Street
before
the share-price
goes
too high
all
because May came and went
but
I didn't
5-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(966)
I
wanted to laugh
as
you passed me by
in
your strip-me-naked-I'm-yours
disguise
but
remembering I'm alone again caused my laugh
to
fall underfoot
where
it was trampled on
by
a thousand smiling men
chasing
after your
strip-me-naked-I'm
yours
disguise
5-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(790)
Someday
when the wind isn't blowing
before
evening steals emotions
and
memory is raw
I
will pass with you
under
the clouds
that
hold back
my
ever constant desire
for
you.
5-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1304)
If
memory has lust
well
then it must
be
for the taste
of
you
before
the banquet
is
devoured by the host
in
the form of a ghost
leaving
me
wanting
you
ever
more
5-26-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(400)
trying
new forms...explanations
shadows
saddles
riding
thoughts
through
the fog
finding...fighting...forgetting
forget
forgive
for
now
frosted
forms
frozen
futures
foreign
beliefs
don't
forget me
as
past
as
whole
as
seen
while
dusting destiny's desire
to
change
ever
when
we
can't
do
much
but
try
new forms
without
explanation
5-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1600)
while
studying
the
theory of everything...
what
held it all together
the
final explanation
of
quantum physics
I
could think of nothing
but
you
how
you held
my
world together
with
your presence
how
you moved me to a greater expression
with
your touch
how
you explained
that
I'd never need anyone else
with
your smile
while
studying the theories of everything
I
found your symmetries
wrapped
me in completeness
5-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1944)
I
made a quick observation
of
forever
and
to my surprise
it
made an even quicker
observation
of me
5-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(534)
All
the plans made passed by
leaving
behind
me
with
plans
made
but
never lived
like
hope
and
wishes
leaving
me
standing
alone
5-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(13 B)
Never
thought there'd be a time
of
blank
of
empty
of
alone
like
before birth
and
after death
when
taste
isn't
but
I am
somewhere
felt
yet
seen not
somewhere
believed
though
not known
somewhere
ore real
than
here
when
sight
sees
all
and
that's it
before
and after
the
big blank
the
big empty
and
the big alone.
5-27-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1118)
Knowing
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would
be when it would all come true
I
jumped out of be
greeted
the morning
and
let it happen
like
I
saw it would
5-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(874)
I
wanted to touch
just
to say hi
who
are you
that
shares the same moving sun
can
I melt into you
before
the next sun rises
maybe
even catch your name
and
if you want
we
could make it last
longer
than
'wasn't
that nice we must do it again sometime'
but
for now
I
will have to find
the
courage
just
to say hi!
5-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(792)
I
wanted to get to know you
but
the day was too short
and
passing by
like
a shooting star
just
a wink...gone
like
the dawn
like
you and me
and
ever after too
5-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(790)
If
you turn out to be
like
my fantasy of you
I'd
forget
this
century
this
planet
these
times
and
so would you.
5-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(428)
When
I didn't see you NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
I
thought it was the end of the world
but
it was only
the
end of the street
and
you weren't there
but
I was
(at
the end of the world)
5-28-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(467)
While
trading moments
best
for better
warm
for hot
night
for day
yesterday
for NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today
I
found the value
of
each moment
increased
as
time went on
5-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1948)
I
wanted to stop thinking about you
so
I jumped into the cold cold sea
and
all I could imagine
was
your warmth
I
ran a marathon
But
still I needed your nourishment
I
climbed a mountain
and
realized I'd never surpass your height
I
wrote a novel
Made
a movie
sang
opera
started
a business
had
some children
but
no matter what I did
I
could never
stop
thinking of you
and
that is why
I'm
writing to tell you
this.
5-29-93
Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(735 B)
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Blog updated / Integrating Technology Blog 19 September 2014. also:terrell.neuage.us and/or neuage.me
NEW SITE = JULY 2014 - http://neuage.us/2014/July/ - Today working on picture poem links starting around "better" (). Picture poems are the digital format of work I did as a street artist in New Orleans in the 1970s, as well as New York City, Honolulu, San Francisco and Adelaide South Australia. Follow @neuage .
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